..if you come dressed as the Crow, you're not getting into the party!

[jessisadistic]

I'm so keyed up and bored that I can't stand myself. I start doing something, get sidetracked, and feel like I've accomplished nothing. Which, besides taking care of Maddy and basic houswork, is compleatly true. The thing is, I make up stuff for me to do as an attempt to keep busy, but it's just not working lately. I can't sleep, and then I'm irritatable the rest of the day. Of course, Tim hasn't had work all week, so we've both been stuck in our too small house trying to tip toe around each other. It's snowing and cold, and we still haven't located the perfect place in AZ. Granted, we have probally six weeks before we move, but I want to have at least a house found. Everything else will just fall into place then. The ideal place has been found, but the landlord is ellusive. Everytime Marbles tries to get ahold of him, the answering machine picks up. Then he calls her while she's at work. I just hope she can connect with him tomorrow. $500/a month with possiable rent to own, 5 acres in the middle of the desert.. 12 miles to Sierra Vista. It's a two bedroom with an Arizona room. Apparently an Arizona room is a glorified screened in patio? At least that's my understanding of it. Good well, and an established garden. No neighbors as far as the eye can see. It sounds glorious, now if we could just get something going. We just can't jump up and do whatever we want with no gameplan. Maddy changed all of that. We have time, I know, but I'm anxious.

I'm a douche anyway because I haven't even broached the topic with my Mom. Douche, douche, double douche.