tell me about it. like i dont take anythin u take offensively or anythin, dont worry! but i jus hope i never change either =/ and if i act like i am please jus tell me cuz i kno how much it hurts seein like both of them, but mostly isabelle cuz i stil tlak to brit sometimes, and not even sayin hi. like serious,y i kno i sound gay sayin "how much it hurts" btu doesnt it sometimes? and i dont wanna do that to u especially cuz that wuld b so dumb so please jus tell me. btu i kno wat u mean and wat ur sayin. i never wulda thot the 4 of us wudlnt be frends, or like mayb i considered ud be left outa the group once u went to college but we'd still all be frends wen u came back for vacations or lived at home. but i always pictured us hanmgin out and me brit and isabelle graduatin 2gether and sometimes i jus think about it or look at pics and cry. like wen it comes to frens, frends r so important to me and i hate it wen things like that happen. we were all so close and i dont think there were ever any days in the summer where atleast 2 outa the 4 of us werent 2gether. i see isablle in the hall and we never say anythin 2 eachtoher. its like i never knew her, EVER. and then i see her in the bathroom twice and its like we both say "hey" in these wierd voices like we jus kno eachother from seein eachother in school, ewn really we used to be BEST frends. like u were always my best frend, and its like otua the 3 of u guys i wuld say all of u guys uz we were ALL best frends. now its like she never knew me and i wonder if she ever thinks wat we think. does she ever care wen she sees me in the hall and we dont say hi. or wen we see eachother in the lunch line. or jus whatever. like i gues she asked nadine about me but like i dunno. it jus stinx so much cuz its jus so random and i dont even ermemeber wen we all started to stop tlkain, do u? cuz i gues in 8th grade we got distant with like all the "popular" girls competin to be her frend cuz they were the other popular grls and hada be frends with the popular isabelle. but i dont even kno. i even ermember the last day of 8th grade she rote on my yearbook like "i miss u we shuld hang out" adn i jus started cryin wen i got home radin it cuz it was like "no u dont! if u did u wuld do sumthin about it" or thast how it seemed to me. its not jus her fault and ikno ive changed and eveythin but i duno. i seriosulydont kno wat id do without u jess if me and u werent frends either otua the 3 of us cuz id b lost and all my memories of like the funnest days of my life wuld absically be lost too. i dont even kno if i want to be frends with them either, cuz i kno it uwldnt b the same and it wudl jus be so awkward btu i jus wish they knew how we felt cuz its like we both dont even exist anymore, and its to people who dont care about them at all when ew're sitten abck here stil thinkin of them and wonderin y its like this or waterva. ya sorry 4 the long cvomment jus feelt he saem way as u do
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