Correction...
Slight correction... Sam and I have decided to just date for now, not be boyfriend/girlfriend yet.
And I've discovered that he is an amazing friend and I care about him very much. And I know he cares about me too.
Tomorrow I'm choosing not to go to French class and instead pay a much-needed visit to Health Services. Then, at 1:30 I have a conference with my French teacher, where I intend to once again bring it up that I am lost in class and do not know if I can keep up with the work and pace of the class. The conference is until 3:00. After that, I am going to find something to occupy my time until 4:30, when Sam gets out of class, and then (hopefully) we are going to talk about what happened when I went to Health Services. But maybe we'll just talk. We just talked for a while tonight, before we knew it it was 1:00. It was very nice. I really need him as my friend. Like I said, we're "dating" still, but we're not together. It was foolish of me to overthink it and try to rush in.
I'm not worried, though. I can still kiss him, he'll still kiss me. We'll still hug each other and cuddle and everything. And he said when he gets his new room (tomorrow?) I can sleep over.
For once, I don't feel like I fucked anything up.
It's going to be okay. Sam told me. I believe him wholeheartedly.
And I've discovered that he is an amazing friend and I care about him very much. And I know he cares about me too.
Tomorrow I'm choosing not to go to French class and instead pay a much-needed visit to Health Services. Then, at 1:30 I have a conference with my French teacher, where I intend to once again bring it up that I am lost in class and do not know if I can keep up with the work and pace of the class. The conference is until 3:00. After that, I am going to find something to occupy my time until 4:30, when Sam gets out of class, and then (hopefully) we are going to talk about what happened when I went to Health Services. But maybe we'll just talk. We just talked for a while tonight, before we knew it it was 1:00. It was very nice. I really need him as my friend. Like I said, we're "dating" still, but we're not together. It was foolish of me to overthink it and try to rush in.
I'm not worried, though. I can still kiss him, he'll still kiss me. We'll still hug each other and cuddle and everything. And he said when he gets his new room (tomorrow?) I can sleep over.
For once, I don't feel like I fucked anything up.
It's going to be okay. Sam told me. I believe him wholeheartedly.