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So...schools starting...
I havent spent a lot of time with my friends this summer.
Usually thats a bad thing, but now...maybe its not so bad...
I had a lot of time to think. Which i never like to do, because then I always come face to face with my mistakes,my decisions, everything I always put furthest from me.
And ive decided I dont regret all my mistakes. Certainly if I could go back in time and tell myself not to make those mistakes I would. But Without them i wouldnt be who I am today. I wouldnt have the friends that accept me for me.
But...just because I dont regret them doesnt mean Im going to keep making the same mistakes over and over..
Ive thought about how much I want people to like me and be my friend..
But ive moved on from that. why should I TRY to make people like me?
Ive stopped trying with some people. Its completely different from giving up though.
Its more like an understanding that they dont like me, and nothing will ever change that. And Im fine with that.
I guess the summer has been good, but its been hard. I mean coming to terms with myself is hard business. Ha..
All this time ive wanted everyone elses acceptance, and I didnt have my own. Gah, I didnt even have my own respect.
Things are going to be different now.
I dont want to say im a different person, but i want think Im a better one.
So now i can say the best of me stays.
I havent spent a lot of time with my friends this summer.
Usually thats a bad thing, but now...maybe its not so bad...
I had a lot of time to think. Which i never like to do, because then I always come face to face with my mistakes,my decisions, everything I always put furthest from me.
And ive decided I dont regret all my mistakes. Certainly if I could go back in time and tell myself not to make those mistakes I would. But Without them i wouldnt be who I am today. I wouldnt have the friends that accept me for me.
But...just because I dont regret them doesnt mean Im going to keep making the same mistakes over and over..
Ive thought about how much I want people to like me and be my friend..
But ive moved on from that. why should I TRY to make people like me?
Ive stopped trying with some people. Its completely different from giving up though.
Its more like an understanding that they dont like me, and nothing will ever change that. And Im fine with that.
I guess the summer has been good, but its been hard. I mean coming to terms with myself is hard business. Ha..
All this time ive wanted everyone elses acceptance, and I didnt have my own. Gah, I didnt even have my own respect.
Things are going to be different now.
I dont want to say im a different person, but i want think Im a better one.
So now i can say the best of me stays.