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I come to realize that I have to evaluate things before I do them. For example, my school situation. I hate it here. I just don't think I belong in Greensboro. The environment is wrong, most of the people suck (well the people that I end up getting in contact with), and I cannot find anyone here (with the exception of Jenny) that I can relate to. I left all that back in Asheville. But, I don't want to go back home. Don't get me wrong, Ashville is a beautiful place. It's just not for me. For the past few days I've been kind of upset here. This place and some of the people I'm around are really getting to me. I feel like I'm going to explode any minute now. And I can't get away from anyone here. I have no alone time at all. even if I try to go away and be by myself, someone always finds me and starts bothering me about stupid things. I haven't had an intellegent conversation with someone since I got here. That's really sad. I'm having a really hard time adapting here. That's not good for a scorpio. No one here understand me when I talk about certain things either. I truely believe that I'm on a completely different level than the people I've involved myself with. I find it realy hard for me to let people go too. I always feel like I need to be nice to people, even if they annoy the hell out of me. I have a feeling though that I may have to stay here another year. I don't like that at all, but I know I have to pace myself otherwise I'll end up making some random decision that I'll eventually regret later in life. hmmmm.