(no subject)
i'm full of forgiveness,
i guess its meant to be...
-No Doubt
Underneath it All
Despite some craziness of late, I am feeling pretty good. I'm looking at a 4.0 this semester and I feel like I am getting the chance to enrich my life with some independance. Of the things I now know I can control, I feel like I am turning over a new leaf to be cliche.
I spent the majority of the weekend having "Jessi Time". I love the sense of accomplishment accompanied with the sense of relaxation. It's strange, but I LIKE to study when I have the time. I love learning; I am a nerd. I love reading in my spare time. I like having the chance to workout. Spending time doing nothing with friends - it revives you. I need these things in my life to keep balance. I want to be there for my friends as they have been for me.
Alot of my time in college has been spent in a relationship. In a total of nearly 4 years in college, I have been truly single for about 2 months. I wouldn't trade those two people for the world. And not to say that I am totally single right now, cause I'm not. But there are benefits to having your 'you' time. And I think what I am in search of is that illusive 'happy medium' between being in a relationship and being an individual. I tend to pour everything I have into a relationship and compromise myself - which to a degree you should for someone you love. But having myself suffer doesn't benefit anyone.
There are still alot of issues I have to workout - with myself and with that someone else. Time will tell. But honestly, at this moment, I am happy. Swirling chaos aside, I'm feeling pretty peaceful - even if things aren't perfect. That's a marvelous relief.
i guess its meant to be...
-No Doubt
Underneath it All
Despite some craziness of late, I am feeling pretty good. I'm looking at a 4.0 this semester and I feel like I am getting the chance to enrich my life with some independance. Of the things I now know I can control, I feel like I am turning over a new leaf to be cliche.
I spent the majority of the weekend having "Jessi Time". I love the sense of accomplishment accompanied with the sense of relaxation. It's strange, but I LIKE to study when I have the time. I love learning; I am a nerd. I love reading in my spare time. I like having the chance to workout. Spending time doing nothing with friends - it revives you. I need these things in my life to keep balance. I want to be there for my friends as they have been for me.
Alot of my time in college has been spent in a relationship. In a total of nearly 4 years in college, I have been truly single for about 2 months. I wouldn't trade those two people for the world. And not to say that I am totally single right now, cause I'm not. But there are benefits to having your 'you' time. And I think what I am in search of is that illusive 'happy medium' between being in a relationship and being an individual. I tend to pour everything I have into a relationship and compromise myself - which to a degree you should for someone you love. But having myself suffer doesn't benefit anyone.
There are still alot of issues I have to workout - with myself and with that someone else. Time will tell. But honestly, at this moment, I am happy. Swirling chaos aside, I'm feeling pretty peaceful - even if things aren't perfect. That's a marvelous relief.