good bye tater
Horrible night. It is 4:00 and I can't sleep. My legs hurt sooo much it is keeping me awake. Am thinking of taking a vicodin.
I haven't posted on here that I got two little baby rats because I was afraid that my mom might be secretly reading this and I am not allowed to have them. I had a wonderful baby girl named Tater who was loving, sweet, calm, and my little darling. Tonight when i was getting ready for bed I checked in on them for their treats and I noticed that Tater had one eye squinted shut. I took her out of the cage to get a better look and she was cold. Normally, rats are warm little heaters. I rocked her and petted her. I tried to see her eye but it was glued shut. Held her for about half and hour until she was sleeping. I put her back in her bed with fresh toilet paper to tuck her in.
Debated what to do. It was 11:00pm. I don't drive and the busses here don't run that late. I had no way to get to a vet. I wanted to clean her eye, but wasn't sure if witch hazle was safe around eye. Decided to let her be until morning.
Woak up at 3:30. Tater was jumping around the cage in a frenzy. Why I got the impression that when rats died it was going to sleep, I don't know. Maybe because Velcro died that way in my arms. This was scary and violent. I wanted to grab her out of the cage and hold her, but she was too panicked. SHe was biting the floor, gasping for breath. Every so often she would do a series of little jumps then collapse back to the floor. Each breath her mouth would open and her whole body would heave with the effort. Then she flopped on her side, good eye up, and started kicking her feet, almost like she was swimming. She was propelling herself around the floor, until she stopped and her whole body was vibrating, little feet and hands kicking helplessly. Then she was gone. It was literally like watching someone drown. She is dead. She died a horrible, slow death and I couldn't even comfert her.
What unnerves me most is I thought all my other rats had died in their sleep, or at least it was quick. I would just find their little bodies on the cage floor in the morning. There is a reason they are on the floor and not in bed. THey were fighting for every breath. I hope that not all their deaths were so terrible. I hope some passed quickly. Most I didn't even know were sick. Maybe those died quickly.
My little tater. I am so sorry. I wish I could have taken it all away.
I haven't posted on here that I got two little baby rats because I was afraid that my mom might be secretly reading this and I am not allowed to have them. I had a wonderful baby girl named Tater who was loving, sweet, calm, and my little darling. Tonight when i was getting ready for bed I checked in on them for their treats and I noticed that Tater had one eye squinted shut. I took her out of the cage to get a better look and she was cold. Normally, rats are warm little heaters. I rocked her and petted her. I tried to see her eye but it was glued shut. Held her for about half and hour until she was sleeping. I put her back in her bed with fresh toilet paper to tuck her in.
Debated what to do. It was 11:00pm. I don't drive and the busses here don't run that late. I had no way to get to a vet. I wanted to clean her eye, but wasn't sure if witch hazle was safe around eye. Decided to let her be until morning.
Woak up at 3:30. Tater was jumping around the cage in a frenzy. Why I got the impression that when rats died it was going to sleep, I don't know. Maybe because Velcro died that way in my arms. This was scary and violent. I wanted to grab her out of the cage and hold her, but she was too panicked. SHe was biting the floor, gasping for breath. Every so often she would do a series of little jumps then collapse back to the floor. Each breath her mouth would open and her whole body would heave with the effort. Then she flopped on her side, good eye up, and started kicking her feet, almost like she was swimming. She was propelling herself around the floor, until she stopped and her whole body was vibrating, little feet and hands kicking helplessly. Then she was gone. It was literally like watching someone drown. She is dead. She died a horrible, slow death and I couldn't even comfert her.
What unnerves me most is I thought all my other rats had died in their sleep, or at least it was quick. I would just find their little bodies on the cage floor in the morning. There is a reason they are on the floor and not in bed. THey were fighting for every breath. I hope that not all their deaths were so terrible. I hope some passed quickly. Most I didn't even know were sick. Maybe those died quickly.
My little tater. I am so sorry. I wish I could have taken it all away.