my war is not with someone like you.
i truely feel fortunate for the first time in my life. the acknowlegment of the hard work i do, makes it all worth it at the end of the night.
that maturity complex i had previously rambled about, is gone now. i feel like myself again. i'm having fun again. i'm back to where i started. content.
my weeks are long and tiresome but catching up with my bills and debts and being able to write a check without fear of it bouncing is such a relief. i havent turned my cell phone back on but in a way, its liberating. i havent seen any of my friends in a few weeks but no only am i saving myself 70 dollars a month, i do not have the time to just hang out anymore. i'm working two full time jobs right now. the fact that i pull that off and mantain the energy to keep pushing on, amazes me. i never thought of myself as a person who worked well under pressure or as someone who would fit in with the cubicle crowd. but i'm pulling it off. i wear the slacks and the blouse and slip on the high heels and wear my hair in a stupid bun and i file my papers while sipping my starbucks and it works for me.
my friday nights are spent drinking heavily with the BWG Crew, jenn and the guys in the kitchen [some of the greatest people i know]. we throw them back like there is no tomorrow and talk about everything. usually trading stories about work. saturday morning is spent nursing our hangovers with pancakes and coffee from linda's.
im trying to save as much money as i possibly can.
i have two goals in mind.
1.) Go visit Sean in California as soon as possible and stay as long as possible
and
2.) have my own apartment somewhere by the end of next year.
if i get serious, both goals are completely attainable.
i'm in a good place right now.
that maturity complex i had previously rambled about, is gone now. i feel like myself again. i'm having fun again. i'm back to where i started. content.
my weeks are long and tiresome but catching up with my bills and debts and being able to write a check without fear of it bouncing is such a relief. i havent turned my cell phone back on but in a way, its liberating. i havent seen any of my friends in a few weeks but no only am i saving myself 70 dollars a month, i do not have the time to just hang out anymore. i'm working two full time jobs right now. the fact that i pull that off and mantain the energy to keep pushing on, amazes me. i never thought of myself as a person who worked well under pressure or as someone who would fit in with the cubicle crowd. but i'm pulling it off. i wear the slacks and the blouse and slip on the high heels and wear my hair in a stupid bun and i file my papers while sipping my starbucks and it works for me.
my friday nights are spent drinking heavily with the BWG Crew, jenn and the guys in the kitchen [some of the greatest people i know]. we throw them back like there is no tomorrow and talk about everything. usually trading stories about work. saturday morning is spent nursing our hangovers with pancakes and coffee from linda's.
im trying to save as much money as i possibly can.
i have two goals in mind.
1.) Go visit Sean in California as soon as possible and stay as long as possible
and
2.) have my own apartment somewhere by the end of next year.
if i get serious, both goals are completely attainable.
i'm in a good place right now.