I Lied
OKay, so when I said that was all I had to say for this evening, I lied. Cause lemme tell ya, a lot has happened since then. Well not really a lot but I talked to Nick for a long time about lots of things, and that was good...and I feel so much better..and I'm in a way better mood. Cause I was not happy before, I can tell you that. I'm beginning to realize that even though I want my relationship with Nick to perfect and nothing to be wrong, that that is never going to happen. Sometimes I wish that things were easy. And I definately envy people who have relationships where everything is easy. Although...that takes a lot of the interesting stuff out of it. And one thing that I would never ever take for granted if I had it would be...if Nick lived in the same town as me or went to the same school as me. I wish I had that every day of my life. Especially seeing couples in school so close...it makes me so jealous. Sometimes I think it's better this way though...but sometimes being far apart just adds more stress to the regular trials and tribulations of every day relationships. All I know is that I love Nick, I love Toni, and I love my mom and dad...and that's all I can do. :)
xoxo
xoxo