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a lot has happen these past few weeks, i have had a lot of ups and downs lately. i cant wait for school to end, but at the same time i dont want it to. i feel i have missed out on a lot these past few years. i cant explain my actions for it, i hate my self for it. NY was a plus for me. i had a good time going and spending time with friends i never really see any more. i was kinda sad that it would end soon after. i dont know were i stand anymore. i feel like im a ghost just wondering around everywhere placing a burden on everyone. i feel that i will always be alone find anyone to be with. im so immature in my thoughts and actions i hate it, they always fuck me over. there is a lot of good in me, but lately ive have a hard time finding it. well the AP Physic test is tomorrow, i think ill do good.