mid week crisis (does it smell like urine in here?)

[jessiehatesaim]

so many things, so little time. right now i am taking a small break from my uber frustrating physics homework. taking any sort of math or physics class strengthens my love(er something) for chem/bio. in physics and math everything is so god damn ambiguous. just give me a mafucking formula and some rules damnit. aaaaaarrrrrrg. orgo has raped my week so far, yesterday i spent four hours in lab followed by another 2 working on the problem set. one lovely after effect from my time in lab is the fact that i have the smell of the chemicals we were using permanently implanted in my sensory system. i smell them everywhere & it definitely smells sort of like urine, yesssss. i went into the lab today to FINISH and i nearly vomited cuz i had to smell them again in full force. seriously it was rank. ok done raging about school. i am trying my darndest to keep this a non-venting-bout-school journal. in other news, i bought tix for wilco this evening. row u, not sure if that is good or bad but we shall see. super excited for that, FINALLY a good band comes to kzoo and has a concert on the weekend instead of a weekday. in the more near future for excitement, it turns out that my roommate, katie & liz we all be here until sunday. so at least i wont be completely isolated this weekend. on sat we are doing the dutch auction in severn. we are sooooo going to win, bitches. haha. this weekend = major studying and study abroad applying time. i just want to get that beast done so that i can enjoy next weekend. at this time there really isnt a great weekend for me to leave & visit friendsss, all my shite is spread out. i really would like to at least go visit ash & jess at some point in time. we can make it work, i have faith. tomorrow is another busy day. i am going to northglade to meet my "little sister" for the first time, hopefully that will go well & then of course i have my two labs. KILL. okok must get back to work. buenos noches!

.all i want in life's a little bit of love to take the pain away. getting strong today, a giant step each day.