sorry napoleon...

[jessiehatesaim]

so last night was sweet. went over to ashbags for some quality AT time. (and yes there was definitely euchre) :) napoleon dynamite was on the tv but all of us were too busy talking to really watch it. it looked funny from the brief parts that i saw & i am going to watch it today before work. spending time with AT kids was surprisingly really enjoyable. it also made me realize how different my friends at kalamazoo are from the kids that i grew up with. no offense to my kzooers, you guys rock, but i just feel like i fit in so much better with my old classmates. (this is probably not entirely true because with time they will most likely get on my nerves & it could just be because i haven't seen them in a long time). but anyway i actually was laughing (genuinely laughing) for like the entire night & it felt good to just let loose and be nerdy & strange & whatnot without holding back. i miss the sarcasm, the witty comments, the over-analysis of everything, being grammatically correct, the slight hint of cynicism & the overall attitude of not caring about social norms. & its not just AT kids, it just seems to me like my friends from high school aren't blindly following what their parents want or what society expects of them. We're not going to buy what some schmuck is selling & we are going to fight on our own path to adulthood fucking the system along the way. At k i often feel like people are afraid to do something that might be termed 'unacceptable' by someone else & that these kids were perfect angels all through high school and now suddenly they need to rebel. my friends from home are 'good kids', but we know what is going on around us & in our own unique ways we are fighting against everything in order to make a place for ourselves in the world. its this attitude of not going down quietly that i miss so much when i am at school. i miss people who would rather be BFC than a complete tool. wow. this is a terrible post. i really do have a good time with my friends at school i promise, i have met some really cool people & i am lucky to be friends with them but last night i realized how different it is now from what it used to be.

.now i'm confused,is this depth really you? & do these dreams have any meaning?.