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I'm just trying to make it to tomorrow
and hoping I'm in a car wreck then
and I wish I could forget the things we said
just so I could redeem these tears
goodbye dearest
I'll miss you
forever
and ever
and just a little bit longer that that.
Why can't I stop being like this? Depression sucks. I hate not having Jesse here anymore and I already miss him so much, but what the fuck and I supposed to do? I swear, my life is disenegrating right in front of me, and I can't do anything to stop it. I'm about to just put a gun to my head I'm so messed up. I think that fate has a tinge for disliking me quite a little bit. I don't know what to do with myself, my family won't even leave me alone long enough to collect my thoughts. It's not like I'm going to tell my dad about how my boyfriend is being forced to move in with his mom's boyfriend an hour away. They know that he's moving, but I never told them the details. I just wish I didn't have to think about it. People are just so damn ignorant. I hate his mom to pieces. I'm about to gouge her eyes out with my thumbs and shove them down her throat. Beyond that I don't know what I would do.
Probably just wash my hands.
Oh well. I seriously doubt that anyone is going to read all of this anyways, and if you do, then fuck you very much. I hate the world so bad right now it isn't even fair to me that I feel like this.
shoot me please.
and hoping I'm in a car wreck then
and I wish I could forget the things we said
just so I could redeem these tears
goodbye dearest
I'll miss you
forever
and ever
and just a little bit longer that that.
Why can't I stop being like this? Depression sucks. I hate not having Jesse here anymore and I already miss him so much, but what the fuck and I supposed to do? I swear, my life is disenegrating right in front of me, and I can't do anything to stop it. I'm about to just put a gun to my head I'm so messed up. I think that fate has a tinge for disliking me quite a little bit. I don't know what to do with myself, my family won't even leave me alone long enough to collect my thoughts. It's not like I'm going to tell my dad about how my boyfriend is being forced to move in with his mom's boyfriend an hour away. They know that he's moving, but I never told them the details. I just wish I didn't have to think about it. People are just so damn ignorant. I hate his mom to pieces. I'm about to gouge her eyes out with my thumbs and shove them down her throat. Beyond that I don't know what I would do.
Probably just wash my hands.
Oh well. I seriously doubt that anyone is going to read all of this anyways, and if you do, then fuck you very much. I hate the world so bad right now it isn't even fair to me that I feel like this.
shoot me please.