The whole time i was reading this i was thinking how simular it sounded, i have spoke and written these same words, the only difference unlike u, i was stubborn and didnt realize i should tone it down. i made cards every month too, and all those things u talked about that made u feel unwanted, made me feel unwanted too. but ur right, its not that they dont care, its just that they are different, i am happy for u that u learnt that in time. its still hard tho, even tho u know someone care's its hard when they dont show it. hopefully both of u can learn to compromise, my mistake was that i stopped making cards out of spite becuase i felt she didnt appreciate it, instead of doing as u did, and stop making them to have one less arguement in a relationship. Its hard when people dont understand how it is to be stuck in a funk and feeling sad all the time. i think maybe thats why it took me so long to move on from my ex, because its not that i want her back, its just that i want her to understand me, to understand what i was going thru, and i have come to terms that she wont ever, that was my biggest challenge, i mean maybe one day when she lives on her own and supports herself she might think back and realize what i was going thru. but really it doesnt matter anymore. In a long distance relationship both people have to want the same thing, each other, bad enough for it to work. i dont know u very well, nor jake, but he seems like a good guy from what u write, and it seems he trys to understand ur sadness instead of letting it push him away. i think in time things will work out :) Ur a passionate person and i can tell ur giving it ur all in ur relationship with jake. good luck jessie. ::hugs:: its funny how when a person is away u love them the most. lol.
It's so true, being away from someone you love intensifies everything, good and bad. There's an aching numbness I feel when we are apart, and I know it sounds selfish and fickle, but i want him to feel that pain too. Toning down how we feel may be the safest solution, but at the end of the day, didn't they fall in love with us because we're so passionate? Why is it that the things you love most about a person can ultimately be their undoing? In Jake I found the closest thing I've ever known to someone who loves like I do. But still I'm unsatisfied. I have to wonder, will I ever be satisfied? I don't think so. Jesus, if we were together there'd be a hell of a lot of card making going on eh? Hehe. Take care beauty, Jessie xxx
Its not selfish, its just human nature. Its sort of a re-assurance when we know our loved one misses us and hurts when we are gone just as bad as we do. EXACTLY! lol, they did fall in love with us becasue we are so passionate, lena loved me because i care so much for others and she says i have a good heart, but in the end, she told me i expect too much, i care too much, it became a negative thing to her that i am who i am. and its weird because a huge part of me, knows she never really loved me, because when u love someone u work thru hard times, u dont run from them, or maybe thats just me :P lol. My friends mom said something last night that i think will help u. she said "in the moment u may be so mad, or so hurt, or so something and u dont really care if u break up, and u want to be mean and argue and fight and yell and end the relationship, but in the main stream of things, when u step back and think about it really, do u know and want that person to be with u, and do u want to be with that person too, could u see urself grow old with that person, and if the answer is yes, u wont be so quick to end it, because the feeling of wanting to end it, is in the now, not in the future" she also said " to love someone and how her 25 year marraige has lasted is that she excepts the good and the bad, she excepts that sometimes her husband pisses her off, and that people are who they are" this may not purtain to anything ur going thru right now, but i think it is something good to think about. I think people like me and u will always be unsatisfied about things that we want from others. there are few people like us who give up everything for someone, and i dont just mean that just literally. Our job is to learn to accept that people love us, and even tho we see and appreciate every little thing they do, that they might not see and appreciate every little thing we do.
LOL yes there would have been a heck of a lot of card making, and candle giving, and little nick-nacks here and there, we would both be totally broke from giving to the other that we would end up sitting in a room surrounded by our stuff on a friday night! lol, j/k. ok ok thats a little extreme. haha.
Cheer up doll, like i said things will work out :) wish u the best, Mandi
In a long distance relationship both people have to want the same thing, each other, bad enough for it to work. i dont know u very well, nor jake, but he seems like a good guy from what u write, and it seems he trys to understand ur sadness instead of letting it push him away. i think in time things will work out :) Ur a passionate person and i can tell ur giving it ur all in ur relationship with jake. good luck jessie. ::hugs:: its funny how when a person is away u love them the most. lol.
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Toning down how we feel may be the safest solution, but at the end of the day, didn't they fall in love with us because we're so passionate? Why is it that the things you love most about a person can ultimately be their undoing?
In Jake I found the closest thing I've ever known to someone who loves like I do. But still I'm unsatisfied. I have to wonder, will I ever be satisfied? I don't think so.
Jesus, if we were together there'd be a hell of a lot of card making going on eh? Hehe.
Take care beauty,
Jessie
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EXACTLY! lol, they did fall in love with us becasue we are so passionate, lena loved me because i care so much for others and she says i have a good heart, but in the end, she told me i expect too much, i care too much, it became a negative thing to her that i am who i am. and its weird because a huge part of me, knows she never really loved me, because when u love someone u work thru hard times, u dont run from them, or maybe thats just me :P lol.
My friends mom said something last night that i think will help u. she said "in the moment u may be so mad, or so hurt, or so something and u dont really care if u break up, and u want to be mean and argue and fight and yell and end the relationship, but in the main stream of things, when u step back and think about it really, do u know and want that person to be with u, and do u want to be with that person too, could u see urself grow old with that person, and if the answer is yes, u wont be so quick to end it, because the feeling of wanting to end it, is in the now, not in the future" she also said " to love someone and how her 25 year marraige has lasted is that she excepts the good and the bad, she excepts that sometimes her husband pisses her off, and that people are who they are" this may not purtain to anything ur going thru right now, but i think it is something good to think about.
I think people like me and u will always be unsatisfied about things that we want from others. there are few people like us who give up everything for someone, and i dont just mean that just literally. Our job is to learn to accept that people love us, and even tho we see and appreciate every little thing they do, that they might not see and appreciate every little thing we do.
LOL yes there would have been a heck of a lot of card making, and candle giving, and little nick-nacks here and there, we would both be totally broke from giving to the other that we would end up sitting in a room surrounded by our stuff on a friday night! lol, j/k. ok ok thats a little extreme. haha.
Cheer up doll, like i said things will work out :)
wish u the best, Mandi
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