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i don't want to feel bad for someone who doesn't feel bad for himself.
but i do. and i don't want to cry for someone who doesn't cry for himself.
but i do. and i don't want to pray for someone who doesn't pray for himself.
but i do. and there has to be a reason. it's either because i was too attached for too long or because God is just killing my heart and soul because someone i knew better than anyone else is not living and loving the way they are supposed to. i don't know what i'm supposed to do, God. i want to hear your voice. i don't want to hear through other people or be guided by your Word; i want to hear you. something that i know isn't just me, isn't just one of the thousands of thoughts that run through my head. but you're probably trying to teach me to be happy with what i get, and to be aware of you in others. but i still wish you could make it clear for me.
i wish you would make it clear for him.
i want to be more in tune with your will, but i'm not. it just doesn't feel right to sit by and do nothing. but this isn't my battle, it's yours. please don't let me get discouraged. renew my heart and mind. and thank you for not giving up on him.
i'm still wishing i had wing like a dove so i could fly to my desert, my hiding place. God, what a miserable way to be. i need to worry about myself. HELP ME.
but i do. and i don't want to cry for someone who doesn't cry for himself.
but i do. and i don't want to pray for someone who doesn't pray for himself.
but i do. and there has to be a reason. it's either because i was too attached for too long or because God is just killing my heart and soul because someone i knew better than anyone else is not living and loving the way they are supposed to. i don't know what i'm supposed to do, God. i want to hear your voice. i don't want to hear through other people or be guided by your Word; i want to hear you. something that i know isn't just me, isn't just one of the thousands of thoughts that run through my head. but you're probably trying to teach me to be happy with what i get, and to be aware of you in others. but i still wish you could make it clear for me.
i wish you would make it clear for him.
i want to be more in tune with your will, but i'm not. it just doesn't feel right to sit by and do nothing. but this isn't my battle, it's yours. please don't let me get discouraged. renew my heart and mind. and thank you for not giving up on him.
i'm still wishing i had wing like a dove so i could fly to my desert, my hiding place. God, what a miserable way to be. i need to worry about myself. HELP ME.