fuck
today being the 23rd means i've basically got the rest of this holiday and that's it to fill out all scholarship apps, write their essays contact plan 2 ask for letters of recommendation figure out all the community service i've done since freshman year, do all the homework mrs friggin wright wants us to do... all while my damn supervisor decides to call me in for yet another full day of work, 8 to 6:30.
i was planning on sleeping in, taking ashley to casa and doing laundry, but none of that happened cause sam is "sick" again.
i had to write all that down just to look at today's basics. clint's dad was at the vet today.. hershey is an extremely hyper dog. i was like "arent you clints dad?"
clints dad "yep"
me "im jessie"
clints dad "oh, are you"
me "mm.. *double checks* yeah"
*long pause*
*jessie gets mauled by dog and checks tests*
clints dad "do you ever talk to him anymore?"
jessie "ummmmmmm i kind of talked to him for a minute the other night, he was out with drew..."
*no response*
me "yeah so i'll go get that file..." thats about it as far as work goes
whoa, i knew i had something interesting to say, i just remembered what it was. i think i had a panic attack the other night, it was a weird experience. carrie calls me from starbucks and says that miles and kyle are at starbucks and that i should go and im thinking "kyle's hanging out at starbucks already?" so i go up there and he's still there and i give him a hug, and im kind of sitting across from him thinking about how freaked out i was when i first thought that he wasnt going to be ok, when a cup hits me in the head- kyle threw it at me. well im sitting there talking to ashley and she brought up something that happened last year that i dont feel like mentioning, and so i say to her "why would you bring that up, thats so mean!" and im half joking, but i felt my face get really hot and my eyes started watering, and so im thinking "holy shit, im gonna cry?" and so i start laughing. it was the most confusing anxious feeling i can imagine, and it didnt help that ashley's staring at me in shock as she's saying "im sorry! ok lets go to the bathroom" and so i sat on the bathroom floor cry/laughing until carrie comes in and she's like "is she laughing?" and ashley says "no?" ... didnt last too long, but i got some fresh air and nothing much happened after that. if anybody would like to offer me free psychiatric help that would be great.
the anxious feeling never went away
oh yeah and there was a tornado by my work today... interesting how that slips my mind.
ok i've got people of my own to counsel so i'll be on my way.
i was planning on sleeping in, taking ashley to casa and doing laundry, but none of that happened cause sam is "sick" again.
i had to write all that down just to look at today's basics. clint's dad was at the vet today.. hershey is an extremely hyper dog. i was like "arent you clints dad?"
clints dad "yep"
me "im jessie"
clints dad "oh, are you"
me "mm.. *double checks* yeah"
*long pause*
*jessie gets mauled by dog and checks tests*
clints dad "do you ever talk to him anymore?"
jessie "ummmmmmm i kind of talked to him for a minute the other night, he was out with drew..."
*no response*
me "yeah so i'll go get that file..." thats about it as far as work goes
whoa, i knew i had something interesting to say, i just remembered what it was. i think i had a panic attack the other night, it was a weird experience. carrie calls me from starbucks and says that miles and kyle are at starbucks and that i should go and im thinking "kyle's hanging out at starbucks already?" so i go up there and he's still there and i give him a hug, and im kind of sitting across from him thinking about how freaked out i was when i first thought that he wasnt going to be ok, when a cup hits me in the head- kyle threw it at me. well im sitting there talking to ashley and she brought up something that happened last year that i dont feel like mentioning, and so i say to her "why would you bring that up, thats so mean!" and im half joking, but i felt my face get really hot and my eyes started watering, and so im thinking "holy shit, im gonna cry?" and so i start laughing. it was the most confusing anxious feeling i can imagine, and it didnt help that ashley's staring at me in shock as she's saying "im sorry! ok lets go to the bathroom" and so i sat on the bathroom floor cry/laughing until carrie comes in and she's like "is she laughing?" and ashley says "no?" ... didnt last too long, but i got some fresh air and nothing much happened after that. if anybody would like to offer me free psychiatric help that would be great.
the anxious feeling never went away
oh yeah and there was a tornado by my work today... interesting how that slips my mind.
ok i've got people of my own to counsel so i'll be on my way.