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Sometimes you watch from a distance and try to understand. You look into yourself and see something new. Right now my life just took another weird turn. Ever since the whole mess with my mom almost kicking me out and my new change in major, physics. I have gotten a lot closer with my father. You know how you notice some things but kind of ignore the truth that they are there. Well although certain truths are now realized things really have changed. I now see why my parents never worked out they couldn't.
My mother has always wished that closeness that existed in our relationship was with my brother. She sees my father in me soo much that I think it actually hurts her. To the point where she is actually weary of me. I mean yeah it hurts but sometimes the truth does. It has always bothered me why mother put up a wall in our relationship now I know why. When she see me she sees her daughter but she also sees the man she divorced which is my father. And that part just happens to be quite large.
On the lighter side my relationship with my father has become a lot better. We can actually talk and he has just become a big part of my life. Which is kind of cool because it was like before we couldn't talk without the conversation ending in with me in tears. Plus I just contacted my uncle don. He is this awesome kinda crazy physicist. He has a lot of contacts with colleges and such. I don't know everything is looking a lot better. My relationship with my mother will probably never be the same but things happen for a reason. Truths are realized and you just roll with it. I am really looking forward to my email from my Uncle Don. So thats that for now and have to say I'm pretty frickin excited. :)
My mother has always wished that closeness that existed in our relationship was with my brother. She sees my father in me soo much that I think it actually hurts her. To the point where she is actually weary of me. I mean yeah it hurts but sometimes the truth does. It has always bothered me why mother put up a wall in our relationship now I know why. When she see me she sees her daughter but she also sees the man she divorced which is my father. And that part just happens to be quite large.
On the lighter side my relationship with my father has become a lot better. We can actually talk and he has just become a big part of my life. Which is kind of cool because it was like before we couldn't talk without the conversation ending in with me in tears. Plus I just contacted my uncle don. He is this awesome kinda crazy physicist. He has a lot of contacts with colleges and such. I don't know everything is looking a lot better. My relationship with my mother will probably never be the same but things happen for a reason. Truths are realized and you just roll with it. I am really looking forward to my email from my Uncle Don. So thats that for now and have to say I'm pretty frickin excited. :)