here for now
Wow just read my last journal entry, yeah little bitter. Probably should work on that. So I finally have a job now. (doin the happy dance, oh yes). I will be a server at puleo's grill. Which is pretty freakin sweet. ahh wow, so I now attend church, go to church outings the whole bit. It's all a little weird. I have been away from it all for so long I just feel I don't know. It's like what do you do. The people are all very sweet and genuine. I just know that I don't fit the profile to be there. I'm basically going because it means so much to my mom. I just don't want her having to explain why I am not there. I mean if it's work it's awhole other thing but this is really important to her. She needs the church and I need her to be happy. So I guess thats it.
I miss the all my friends so much, shannon, bee, jess, coba, pete just everyone. It's like I know I can't move back because it would take me forever to graduate from northern. And I really just don't have the money any more to take my sweet time. I miss the lake, smoke rides, the sun sets, just everything. What I miss the most is the early morning/,midday/night conferences with shannon. Oh my gosh haha yeah good times. That little knock on my door then shannon giggling. yeah potatoes, pizza searching for chain for food, and of course mighty KFC. Then Pete's lead singing, love affairs and well pete being pete. Damn ugghh why must TN be a bible belt honestly come on now. All thank goodnesss for my new job and hopefully that will open up some opportunities because I'm kinda of reaching my wits end here. The bottle of wine will soon to become bottles and all I can hope for is that next week will be different.
Oh yeah definitely ran into the screen door, have to say not a fan. Kinda hurt and the really bad thing is I was sober, yeah. haha hey it happens :) slowly becoming a little bit of a fan of disco, yeah I know kinda scary what is happening.
I miss the all my friends so much, shannon, bee, jess, coba, pete just everyone. It's like I know I can't move back because it would take me forever to graduate from northern. And I really just don't have the money any more to take my sweet time. I miss the lake, smoke rides, the sun sets, just everything. What I miss the most is the early morning/,midday/night conferences with shannon. Oh my gosh haha yeah good times. That little knock on my door then shannon giggling. yeah potatoes, pizza searching for chain for food, and of course mighty KFC. Then Pete's lead singing, love affairs and well pete being pete. Damn ugghh why must TN be a bible belt honestly come on now. All thank goodnesss for my new job and hopefully that will open up some opportunities because I'm kinda of reaching my wits end here. The bottle of wine will soon to become bottles and all I can hope for is that next week will be different.
Oh yeah definitely ran into the screen door, have to say not a fan. Kinda hurt and the really bad thing is I was sober, yeah. haha hey it happens :) slowly becoming a little bit of a fan of disco, yeah I know kinda scary what is happening.