(no subject)
Though my self expression through writing has taken a backseat lately, I've found it in other areas...weird ones at that. I've realized I am good at my job, I just lacked the confidence to excel. Do I blame my self? Partly, you see I let myself believe what others said because they were in a position of authority. Fortunately some issues were cleared up and I feel I've overcome this obstacle. Ive also learned that I'm pretty good at Finance. Yeah, imagine that! I'm also finding that I have to teach in some capcity at some point in my life. I really enjoy helping people understand concepts but I need to sharpen my skills. I have a tendency to talk above people's level of understanding. Not becuase I'm smarter, but because I pride myself on using the vocabulary associted with the given subject. Sometimes you have to relate to people in a way they can understand, then progress to the terminology.
I wonder if I hadn't taken this path in life what would have been. Looking back at my life I realize I have an odd past. Beyond drugs, rebellion and ridicouls amounts of obstacles I've never felt giving up was an option. What really makes us ambitious or driven or merely content? What would have happend had I not felt so strongly about my definition of success. Would I have been married with kids and would that have made me happy? Would I have been willing to give up that much of myself? I can honestly say I don't know. In fact, I still don't know. I love kids and I want to be married one day but as I get older I become more set in my ways. I know I've made certain choices that almost define my future but what else will it bring? I guess you never really know until you get there. I'm happy with the decisions I've made, I'm happy with my definition of success. I'm happy being me and I believe that's enough.
Just a little heartfelt pondering.....I think things are where I want them to be right now. I have a perfect balance of busy and fun and It's refreshing.
Love you you all :)
I wonder if I hadn't taken this path in life what would have been. Looking back at my life I realize I have an odd past. Beyond drugs, rebellion and ridicouls amounts of obstacles I've never felt giving up was an option. What really makes us ambitious or driven or merely content? What would have happend had I not felt so strongly about my definition of success. Would I have been married with kids and would that have made me happy? Would I have been willing to give up that much of myself? I can honestly say I don't know. In fact, I still don't know. I love kids and I want to be married one day but as I get older I become more set in my ways. I know I've made certain choices that almost define my future but what else will it bring? I guess you never really know until you get there. I'm happy with the decisions I've made, I'm happy with my definition of success. I'm happy being me and I believe that's enough.
Just a little heartfelt pondering.....I think things are where I want them to be right now. I have a perfect balance of busy and fun and It's refreshing.
Love you you all :)