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it is so fucking great to be home. oh shit. but i type kind of slow b/c i got used to the stupid keyboard in france where you have to press caps lock to type in numbers. anyway yesterday was so great. it was sad saying goodbye to paris and my host family and their kitty<3
but when i got off the plane and after we went thru customs, the first person i saw was lucas, and the second was nick...i flipped b/c i didnt think he was coming, i was so happy. then i saw my mommy! i missed her a lot too. then we came back to my house for a little while and i saw lucifer! then i went to nicks which was awesome b/c yeah...and we smoked...ooo baby. so its good to be home but now im starting to think about chris more b/c now im around other people who are also effected b/c in paris it was just me. but now theres my friends that i share the same feelings with, so its gonna be really hard. i was holding back tears at nicks house yesterday. i didnt wanna start crying, but i am going to see his grave maybe today. it is just all really sad. well im gonna go take a shower soon. good to be home.
but when i got off the plane and after we went thru customs, the first person i saw was lucas, and the second was nick...i flipped b/c i didnt think he was coming, i was so happy. then i saw my mommy! i missed her a lot too. then we came back to my house for a little while and i saw lucifer! then i went to nicks which was awesome b/c yeah...and we smoked...ooo baby. so its good to be home but now im starting to think about chris more b/c now im around other people who are also effected b/c in paris it was just me. but now theres my friends that i share the same feelings with, so its gonna be really hard. i was holding back tears at nicks house yesterday. i didnt wanna start crying, but i am going to see his grave maybe today. it is just all really sad. well im gonna go take a shower soon. good to be home.