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i just spent $235 at the mall on xmas presents. and i know none of my friends are gonna get me shit. ooooh well its ok. thats a lot of fucking money omg i cant believe i spent all of that. wow i shoulda only got nick and my family stuff. anyway the past couple days havent been so great. i find myself really hating life more and more. i feel like i try so hard to please people but it doesnt do anything. and when i try to please myself then its like horrible b/c then im selfish and blah blah blah. uugh w/e. tomorrows nicks birthday. hes not going to school. neither am i fuck that i hate school omg. i hate everything.