My destiny is to be unhappy for all eternity :s

[jessie1119]

today...aint such a good day for me...you'll hear ne laugh but heh it aint even half the shit ya know...me im very good at frontin' (Frontin' - to pretend that everything is ok, or in some cases, you want someone but you pretend not to) think ive fronted most of my time ive been here...things havent been great for me but i still smile and laugh...mum says i shouldnt bottle shit up inside but who can i talk to?? ah tis no use...hmm its worth not thinking about...the more things get on top me the more i think about leaving...think it would be for the best ya know...or even if i went to london and lived with my mate :) would make me happy at least there i would fit in...i like it when i come into college and evans notice theres something wrong and he asks me whats up? heh someone who cares and means it ^_^...im just gunna keep myself to myself from now on...im too tired to bother really...think its just a waste of time

*sighs*

nell x