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[jessiduh]

I hate this. I haven't written in awhile because I keep putting it off and when I start writing I always stop. :sigh: Why do I have to feel this way? ha, that is the question I'd give my life to find the answer to (not that that is alot to give). I feel useless... So damn useless and so damn sad. I've cryed enough in my lifetime to stop a drought in a small country... :sigh: I wish I never felt like this.

I sit shaking with the shear reality that this will never go away... Nothing I do will ever make this go away... I can be happy... but never for long...

I'm falling apart again...

:'(

:sigh: