Emo Entry! You've been warned.
Argh, gym was supposed to cheer me up, but god I feel horrible. Course the fact that I broke my ban on crappy fast food and hit Mcdonalds tonight doesnt have me feelin too great either. Goddamnit.
Bascially, I'm lonely. It's not that I just miss ArmyMan, but I think about him EVERY day. Every cute couple is like a kick in the stomach, and I have been on the verge of tears for two days. It sucks that I can only cry with one person's arms around me, but that's how it is. Dont get me wrong, I love you guys, and I think it's GREAT that people are getting together. In fact, I highly recommend it!
So I want to be comforted. I want to be held. I want somebody to give a damn and not feel awkward that I am bawling my eyes out. Justin is used to doing this for me. It's an incredible feeling too, just letting yourself cry when you feel like crying. Even when its for something stupid, and later you find out you were just being "hormonal", to have somebody who will brush their fingers against your cheek untill youre thru... I miss that too. I miss having that trust in someone. I miss having someone who won't pull away from me. I miss, I miss, I miss.
Bascially, I'm lonely. It's not that I just miss ArmyMan, but I think about him EVERY day. Every cute couple is like a kick in the stomach, and I have been on the verge of tears for two days. It sucks that I can only cry with one person's arms around me, but that's how it is. Dont get me wrong, I love you guys, and I think it's GREAT that people are getting together. In fact, I highly recommend it!
So I want to be comforted. I want to be held. I want somebody to give a damn and not feel awkward that I am bawling my eyes out. Justin is used to doing this for me. It's an incredible feeling too, just letting yourself cry when you feel like crying. Even when its for something stupid, and later you find out you were just being "hormonal", to have somebody who will brush their fingers against your cheek untill youre thru... I miss that too. I miss having that trust in someone. I miss having someone who won't pull away from me. I miss, I miss, I miss.