OA: Forgiving the Need to Survive
"Nature does nothing uselessly." - Aristotle
What does it take for any living thing to grow straight and true to itself? And if survival is threatened or growth interfered with, what further measures are needed?
There is a natural force in all things that keeps pushing to make them as true to the original as possible.
If compulsive overeating meant survival for me, it did indeed serve a useful purpose, and I am thankful it was a recourse that was open to me. To regret what was necessary to save my life is to fail to appreciate the value of that life.
A very eye opening reading today. I often tell myself and have heard other say that you ought not regret the past, because it brought them to where they are today. In regards to my Compulsive overeating, I never thought of it as a necessary survival tool.
After years of stopping and starting, failed relationships, and dead end situations, Is it any wonder that my addiction to food grew? Even in lean times, there was always food to comfort me. I made some pretty gross looking dishes out of a poor man's budget, but I didn't care so long as it stopped the overwhelming feelings of despair... at least while I was eating that is.
I am finally in a place that I can call home. That I can feel safe to express myself in, good or bad. That my needs will be met with little resistance. Today I am grateful for the chance to not resent the painful past that brought me here. I did it to survive when I thought I had no other choice. Now that I have so many wonderful, more healthful tools at my disposal, I can move away from surviving to LIVING!
For Today: I cannot regret my past, for it allowed me to endure the present.
In other news, GOIN TO THE DICKENS FAIR! WHEEEEEE!
What does it take for any living thing to grow straight and true to itself? And if survival is threatened or growth interfered with, what further measures are needed?
There is a natural force in all things that keeps pushing to make them as true to the original as possible.
If compulsive overeating meant survival for me, it did indeed serve a useful purpose, and I am thankful it was a recourse that was open to me. To regret what was necessary to save my life is to fail to appreciate the value of that life.
A very eye opening reading today. I often tell myself and have heard other say that you ought not regret the past, because it brought them to where they are today. In regards to my Compulsive overeating, I never thought of it as a necessary survival tool.
After years of stopping and starting, failed relationships, and dead end situations, Is it any wonder that my addiction to food grew? Even in lean times, there was always food to comfort me. I made some pretty gross looking dishes out of a poor man's budget, but I didn't care so long as it stopped the overwhelming feelings of despair... at least while I was eating that is.
I am finally in a place that I can call home. That I can feel safe to express myself in, good or bad. That my needs will be met with little resistance. Today I am grateful for the chance to not resent the painful past that brought me here. I did it to survive when I thought I had no other choice. Now that I have so many wonderful, more healthful tools at my disposal, I can move away from surviving to LIVING!
For Today: I cannot regret my past, for it allowed me to endure the present.
In other news, GOIN TO THE DICKENS FAIR! WHEEEEEE!