always
sometimes i feel as though i am a queen. the single type, always someone kneeling at my thrown hoping to get a glimpse of my smiling eyes. knowing i could be treated better than the moment, that someone else would do so much more. sometimes i am just an urchin, deserving and living, nothing pretty given. just dirt. i can prance around with both personas in mind, never really knowing which one is the only right one. just rarely really getting one good one. it's like those sad, sick songs you already know the next line even though you've never heard it. it's just so sad loving anyone besides your family. even them and me, everyone tends to disappoint. i just don't know which one is worse. trying is trying but what do you get when you finally do?
it always seems the same.
it always seems the same.