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this is getting to be ridiculous.
i worked with this older guy named clarence at SG who got fired 2 mo. or so after i started.
i see him......EVVVVVVVERRRRRRYWHEEEEEERRREEEE!
its starting to creep the crap outta me.
and when i say everywhere i literally mean everywhere.
its so awkward...because we both know we both see each other at least 2-3 times a day.
so.
i feel happy.
and content.
and comfortable.
im trying/starting to realize i am not who i am on the outside(cliche)..but i've had a strange sence of peace knowing i'm made up from the joy i experience in life, the pain and lonliness we all go through, the love i shower on others, the people who love me back, and my creator who designed me and loves my flaws.
its so liberating.
i eat what i want when i want and i only do so when im hungry.
i'm trying to be myself towards everyone and show my flaws my annoyingness and my boringness.
i want to dwell in the silence of awkward conversations.
i want to show that i have beauty to offer from the inside.
i want to experience the raunchy real deep ugly love in the mud where it is most easily found.
Holy Spirit, i need you.
I know i will find you because you are two steps ahead of me 1 behind and always present in now.
wake me from my sleep
i worked with this older guy named clarence at SG who got fired 2 mo. or so after i started.
i see him......EVVVVVVVERRRRRRYWHEEEEEERRREEEE!
its starting to creep the crap outta me.
and when i say everywhere i literally mean everywhere.
its so awkward...because we both know we both see each other at least 2-3 times a day.
so.
i feel happy.
and content.
and comfortable.
im trying/starting to realize i am not who i am on the outside(cliche)..but i've had a strange sence of peace knowing i'm made up from the joy i experience in life, the pain and lonliness we all go through, the love i shower on others, the people who love me back, and my creator who designed me and loves my flaws.
its so liberating.
i eat what i want when i want and i only do so when im hungry.
i'm trying to be myself towards everyone and show my flaws my annoyingness and my boringness.
i want to dwell in the silence of awkward conversations.
i want to show that i have beauty to offer from the inside.
i want to experience the raunchy real deep ugly love in the mud where it is most easily found.
Holy Spirit, i need you.
I know i will find you because you are two steps ahead of me 1 behind and always present in now.
wake me from my sleep