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[jessicarene]

a few days away and i am beginning to realize how fucking saintly i was putting up with your shit.
you are such a dick to me and you know it.
i hope you get a hold of yourself some day soon and realize all the mistakes you are making being so scared of everyone.

i cannot say the last few days have not been eventful.
they feel eons away. eons apart.
they were necessary.
i know where i stand now.
i know where i want to stand too.

i am calm about all of this.
surprisingly.
i should be raising hell.
i should be slamming your fucking face into a dresser somewhere.
busting open your head with a fucking crowbar.

i should.
but i am not.
and i will not.
obviously.
i do not want to think about you anymore.
i do not want to even really see you anymore.
but i will get over it.
and feel nothing towards you at all.

i cannot just sit still.
i cannot just let you counter my demands.
i know i have obligations.
and you are no longer one of them.

i would spit in your face if i was not so fucking polite.