The Green Light

[jessicalow_poet]

See i've been searching for this man all my life
But you see, he's here now
But I can't
Let him get in any further
Whenever i've given him the green light
Its been like crushing every cell within me
'cause unlike my dreams at night time
This time theres no getting out
There's no waking up,
so all I feel is that familiar doubt

You must think that I'm a bad person,
To keep shutting the light out, but to air these scars
Is all too much and as the fear runs rampant
The fear is here now and I can't let it get to you

You've seen me, walking at midnight,
So often I can't sleep, because I'm smiling
But how have you been? painting your sadness across the sky
Well I'll let you in on this secret, 
I wish you were here
I wish you were here tonight

So I could just watch you sleeping
Because fear is my only remaining weapon spoiling the sunrise
If you could come and close your eyes, i'd be thankful
becuase although you can't see the skies
You can't see me, only feel these feelings that I'm projecting

This is me telling you, you leave me breathless
And feelings run rampant the fever sets in
But I can't let you see me like this
So i'm really sorry,
But I won't be flashing the Green light