It's taking all I have just to keep from Kissing you.
This weekenddddd. It was so good, but i don't know.
Friday, well, first I got to my car and it wouldn't start...called my dad, cried, called the campus police, then a boy whose car was by mine came and helped me! That was happy. I was so lucky he came out.
So I get into brighton, got my hair cut by a lady whose husband works with my mom, small world! I just got a trim and she washed my hair and didn't dry it...and it was like below freezing. But oh well, So I went into Panera bread to get my check and John was all "Make sure you come after 4:30" Because that's when he worked.
So when I got there he like said Hi but they were kind of busy. So I was in the back and I talked to Alexis for a long time, Me and Jess are going to the Ingram Show and so is she, and she was talking about Gavin and Michael. She's lucky, that would be so fun to have a boyfriend that was some band's tour manager.
So then I went out to say bye to john and i told him I got my hair cut and thats why my hair was wet and he's like "It looks nice" even though it basically looks the same, just an inch shorter. It was cute, then I was leaving and he's like "I love you, call me" and I was like "When you do you want me to call you?" and he's like "Whenever, if you're bored just call me" sooo then I went home and didn't do anything
Saturday there was that huge snow storm, we had so much snow. So my entire family just stayed in all day. I was so bored by night time and I was like "Hey, I'll call JOhn" so it was like 10:30 I think. And he was at Megan's...trying to talk her mom into letter her go to the SOCO show. So Megan lives in Pinckney, much like I do, and i was like "You are going to drive right past my house!" and he's like "Want me to stop by?"
and so he did.
So it was random but it was cute. I'm happy he came over. Like i don't know, waking up saturday I never thought john would be in my house that night. So we talked for a while and then SNL came on and we watched that. He left at like 1:15 am. Cute.
So Sunday I woke up and went shopping with my mom and when I got home I got ready for the concert. John called me and told me that Joe couldn't go either, so now his brother, who is 14, and his cousin, Jessica, who is 17 were going to come. So it was me, jess emerson and Jessica, john's cousin. Lot's of Jessica's.
We met at this park and ride thing by the highway and when I got there JOhn was already there with his cousin and brother in his car, and I parked a few spots away and there was a car in between us. I looked up and John came over to my car. aww. So then we walked back to his car and I got in the back seat and I was like "Hi!" to his brother and cousin and they said NOTHING! It was so awkward. Haha, i didn't know what to do.
So Jess finally gets there and we all get in her car and start driving to Pontaic. Jess kept saying it was awkward because no one was talking. It was funny thought. We went to eat at Max and Erma's and that was awkward too, because we sat at this round table and no one was talking...but we started to break the ice and it got better.
We got in line at the show around 5:50 and the doors opened at 6. Holyyyyyyyyyy crap, I have never been so cold in my life. It was freezing out. I ripped the tickets apart and threw what I thought was the address thing on the ground. We were like huddling in a circle and hooking our arms together to stay warm. My toes were freeezing. It was insane.
The line moved really slow, we got up to the front at like 6:35 and we realized we only had 2 tickets and one address thing, I threw the other ticket on the ground! I'm so dumb. So Jill and i ran back to see if the ticket was still there, and of course, it wasn't. SAD. So we ran back up to the front of the line while people were yelling at us "NO CUTS!" and Jess and Jess had already gone in. So we decided to try to turn our tickets with the real one on top, hoping that the guy wouldn't look at the bottom one and just let us in.
But of course, he looked. So he was like "This isn't a ticket" and Jill is like "OH MY GOD!"....way to play it cool! So it was really obvious. So we were like "We had 2 tickets, we must have throw the other one away!!" and he was like "Can you buy another ticket?" and I was like "...we could...but isn't the show sold out?" and he looked at the tickets and back at us and was like "Alright, go, get out of here." so Jill and I were so happy we got in!!
So we got in there and there were already like 50 people in there, but we were like 15 rows back, but Jess and Jill went to the bathroom and were going to come back. For a while it was just me and john. I don't remember though. haha. So then the opening band starts and I didn't like them...The Academy...the lead singer was super skinny. But by then the crowd was really crowded and jess and Jill couldn't get back in. So Jess called me and for some reason either I grabbed johns hand or he grabbed mine, I don't know, but he was like holding on to my thumb and i don't know why, but it was so cute...he was like rubbing my fingers. And I was like dying.
But after the Academy was over, people started pushing a lot. Luckily Jess and Jill got back, but it was so crazy....we were all smashed really close, I didn't mind being smashed against john though. Haa just kidding. Not really though. So then Hidden In Plainview came out and they were good I think, but I didn't pay attention because people were still pushing a lot.
Thennnnnn Straylight Run came out and I really liked them. They were cute. And Finallyyyyy Something Corporate came out. I thought there would be a lot of pushing, but there wasn't at all. They played like all of my favorite songs and it was so much fun. John doesn't know many SoCo songs becuase he got the tickets for his birthday and he only has the north cd...so he was kind of just standing there...so when Konstantine came on I grabbed his arm and I was like "This is my favorite song" and it was kind of cute. Buttt I don't know.
So when the show was over we all were leaving and Jess had her arm hooked with John's. Whatever. I don't know. And we drove home and it was cold and I went to bed.
And this morning I drove jess back to state and then drove here. And here I am.
So I don't know...sometimes it seems like John likes me but I don't think he does. I don't know. It's all so confusing. And I don't know if I really like him. I always question if I like people for real or just because I think they like me.
But who knows. Not me. We'll see what happens.
Friday, well, first I got to my car and it wouldn't start...called my dad, cried, called the campus police, then a boy whose car was by mine came and helped me! That was happy. I was so lucky he came out.
So I get into brighton, got my hair cut by a lady whose husband works with my mom, small world! I just got a trim and she washed my hair and didn't dry it...and it was like below freezing. But oh well, So I went into Panera bread to get my check and John was all "Make sure you come after 4:30" Because that's when he worked.
So when I got there he like said Hi but they were kind of busy. So I was in the back and I talked to Alexis for a long time, Me and Jess are going to the Ingram Show and so is she, and she was talking about Gavin and Michael. She's lucky, that would be so fun to have a boyfriend that was some band's tour manager.
So then I went out to say bye to john and i told him I got my hair cut and thats why my hair was wet and he's like "It looks nice" even though it basically looks the same, just an inch shorter. It was cute, then I was leaving and he's like "I love you, call me" and I was like "When you do you want me to call you?" and he's like "Whenever, if you're bored just call me" sooo then I went home and didn't do anything
Saturday there was that huge snow storm, we had so much snow. So my entire family just stayed in all day. I was so bored by night time and I was like "Hey, I'll call JOhn" so it was like 10:30 I think. And he was at Megan's...trying to talk her mom into letter her go to the SOCO show. So Megan lives in Pinckney, much like I do, and i was like "You are going to drive right past my house!" and he's like "Want me to stop by?"
and so he did.
So it was random but it was cute. I'm happy he came over. Like i don't know, waking up saturday I never thought john would be in my house that night. So we talked for a while and then SNL came on and we watched that. He left at like 1:15 am. Cute.
So Sunday I woke up and went shopping with my mom and when I got home I got ready for the concert. John called me and told me that Joe couldn't go either, so now his brother, who is 14, and his cousin, Jessica, who is 17 were going to come. So it was me, jess emerson and Jessica, john's cousin. Lot's of Jessica's.
We met at this park and ride thing by the highway and when I got there JOhn was already there with his cousin and brother in his car, and I parked a few spots away and there was a car in between us. I looked up and John came over to my car. aww. So then we walked back to his car and I got in the back seat and I was like "Hi!" to his brother and cousin and they said NOTHING! It was so awkward. Haha, i didn't know what to do.
So Jess finally gets there and we all get in her car and start driving to Pontaic. Jess kept saying it was awkward because no one was talking. It was funny thought. We went to eat at Max and Erma's and that was awkward too, because we sat at this round table and no one was talking...but we started to break the ice and it got better.
We got in line at the show around 5:50 and the doors opened at 6. Holyyyyyyyyyy crap, I have never been so cold in my life. It was freezing out. I ripped the tickets apart and threw what I thought was the address thing on the ground. We were like huddling in a circle and hooking our arms together to stay warm. My toes were freeezing. It was insane.
The line moved really slow, we got up to the front at like 6:35 and we realized we only had 2 tickets and one address thing, I threw the other ticket on the ground! I'm so dumb. So Jill and i ran back to see if the ticket was still there, and of course, it wasn't. SAD. So we ran back up to the front of the line while people were yelling at us "NO CUTS!" and Jess and Jess had already gone in. So we decided to try to turn our tickets with the real one on top, hoping that the guy wouldn't look at the bottom one and just let us in.
But of course, he looked. So he was like "This isn't a ticket" and Jill is like "OH MY GOD!"....way to play it cool! So it was really obvious. So we were like "We had 2 tickets, we must have throw the other one away!!" and he was like "Can you buy another ticket?" and I was like "...we could...but isn't the show sold out?" and he looked at the tickets and back at us and was like "Alright, go, get out of here." so Jill and I were so happy we got in!!
So we got in there and there were already like 50 people in there, but we were like 15 rows back, but Jess and Jill went to the bathroom and were going to come back. For a while it was just me and john. I don't remember though. haha. So then the opening band starts and I didn't like them...The Academy...the lead singer was super skinny. But by then the crowd was really crowded and jess and Jill couldn't get back in. So Jess called me and for some reason either I grabbed johns hand or he grabbed mine, I don't know, but he was like holding on to my thumb and i don't know why, but it was so cute...he was like rubbing my fingers. And I was like dying.
But after the Academy was over, people started pushing a lot. Luckily Jess and Jill got back, but it was so crazy....we were all smashed really close, I didn't mind being smashed against john though. Haa just kidding. Not really though. So then Hidden In Plainview came out and they were good I think, but I didn't pay attention because people were still pushing a lot.
Thennnnnn Straylight Run came out and I really liked them. They were cute. And Finallyyyyy Something Corporate came out. I thought there would be a lot of pushing, but there wasn't at all. They played like all of my favorite songs and it was so much fun. John doesn't know many SoCo songs becuase he got the tickets for his birthday and he only has the north cd...so he was kind of just standing there...so when Konstantine came on I grabbed his arm and I was like "This is my favorite song" and it was kind of cute. Buttt I don't know.
So when the show was over we all were leaving and Jess had her arm hooked with John's. Whatever. I don't know. And we drove home and it was cold and I went to bed.
And this morning I drove jess back to state and then drove here. And here I am.
So I don't know...sometimes it seems like John likes me but I don't think he does. I don't know. It's all so confusing. And I don't know if I really like him. I always question if I like people for real or just because I think they like me.
But who knows. Not me. We'll see what happens.