not to be negativee
ok so first real update in the longest time.
i hardly know where to start or what i should and shouldnt write about.
i always try not to offend people but it doesnt get me anywhere
fuck it right? all out
i cant believe how quickly things can change, and how little it takes to change things once thought to be indestructable.
i love tia with all of my heart, shes always been there for me and weve always had so much fun and understood eachother so much. ive always been able to trust her with anything, which at times tended to scare me a little.
one of the hardest things i have ever done is move away from her. i had the choice to stay at everett high, or go to melrose high. there were so many things pushing me away from everett when it was time for me to choose. i was consumed in a toxic relationship and i saw it ruining me, and i knew switching schools and isolating myself from the situation would make things better for me, so i switched.
i regret it so much. since ive gone to melrose high, ive grown farther and farther away from tia. its honestly insane how a town and a school can create so much distance between people who are so close. her world started to revolve around new friends and work and the school she was attending without me, and my world srarted to do the same.
even the effort to keep in touch was hard because its so hard to understand somebody elses life when youre not living it.
we did keep it together though and stay friends and hangout whenever we both had the chance and tried so hard to explai our lives to one another.
then it all blew up so fast. in the year or two weve been freinds we have never faught. not one time. and then a few weeks ago some stuff went down, and our entire friendship started to break down. the one thing ive leaned on and run to for support and based my life upon is gone. now im standing alone and i feel like at any minute even the floor could fall through.
im honestly such a wreck from not having her around and its like torture watching her live her life and i want to say so much but i cant say anything and its so awkward and painful and i dont know.
im also running around trying to be good to boys who i care about but all of them are so scummy in return. im so sick of showing people love and respect and being desrespected. i am a good person and a great girl and i dont need the shit that gets thrown at me i really dont. ive had enough.
i want life the way it was a year ago, with tia by my side. i want to be living in malden and having all the people i could ever want supporting everything i do.
ive lost so much in this past year, lost so much family and friends to death and distance
i never thought id lose someone i love so much who lives so close that is so far from dead
i hardly know where to start or what i should and shouldnt write about.
i always try not to offend people but it doesnt get me anywhere
fuck it right? all out
i cant believe how quickly things can change, and how little it takes to change things once thought to be indestructable.
i love tia with all of my heart, shes always been there for me and weve always had so much fun and understood eachother so much. ive always been able to trust her with anything, which at times tended to scare me a little.
one of the hardest things i have ever done is move away from her. i had the choice to stay at everett high, or go to melrose high. there were so many things pushing me away from everett when it was time for me to choose. i was consumed in a toxic relationship and i saw it ruining me, and i knew switching schools and isolating myself from the situation would make things better for me, so i switched.
i regret it so much. since ive gone to melrose high, ive grown farther and farther away from tia. its honestly insane how a town and a school can create so much distance between people who are so close. her world started to revolve around new friends and work and the school she was attending without me, and my world srarted to do the same.
even the effort to keep in touch was hard because its so hard to understand somebody elses life when youre not living it.
we did keep it together though and stay friends and hangout whenever we both had the chance and tried so hard to explai our lives to one another.
then it all blew up so fast. in the year or two weve been freinds we have never faught. not one time. and then a few weeks ago some stuff went down, and our entire friendship started to break down. the one thing ive leaned on and run to for support and based my life upon is gone. now im standing alone and i feel like at any minute even the floor could fall through.
im honestly such a wreck from not having her around and its like torture watching her live her life and i want to say so much but i cant say anything and its so awkward and painful and i dont know.
im also running around trying to be good to boys who i care about but all of them are so scummy in return. im so sick of showing people love and respect and being desrespected. i am a good person and a great girl and i dont need the shit that gets thrown at me i really dont. ive had enough.
i want life the way it was a year ago, with tia by my side. i want to be living in malden and having all the people i could ever want supporting everything i do.
ive lost so much in this past year, lost so much family and friends to death and distance
i never thought id lose someone i love so much who lives so close that is so far from dead