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I really miss camp. There was never a dull moment, people who I grew so close to that I can't remember a time when I didn't know them, and an amazing feeling of belonging.
Now I'm back at school and I'm bored all the time, very few of my friends are here yet, and a lot of the time I just feel like I'm alone.
And I just had a realization that it's really hard for people to grow closer with someone who is always leaving. And that's me... always going away. I go away for the experiences, not to get away from people. But at the same time I always look forward to the new people that I'm going to meet even though I will eventually have to leave them too, and go back to the other people that I left behind. It's a never ending cycle and it doesn't look like it's going to stop anytime soon since I have plans to study abroad in Rome during the winter semester.
And then I found these quotes on someones profile and they made me really sad.
"One day your going to realize that she's the one for you, and on that day she is going to wake up to the man who already knew."
"Never make someone your priority if you are only their convenience."
I'm a really bad judge of character. Or maybe I was just decieved by a person that I thought I could trust. But either way, I feel like a fool.
Luckily I still have a lot of other people who care about me and don't make me feel as worthless as someone else did. I'd just feel a lot better right now if all of those people weren't so far away.
But it's okay. I'll figure everything out. I'm good at that.
Now I'm back at school and I'm bored all the time, very few of my friends are here yet, and a lot of the time I just feel like I'm alone.
And I just had a realization that it's really hard for people to grow closer with someone who is always leaving. And that's me... always going away. I go away for the experiences, not to get away from people. But at the same time I always look forward to the new people that I'm going to meet even though I will eventually have to leave them too, and go back to the other people that I left behind. It's a never ending cycle and it doesn't look like it's going to stop anytime soon since I have plans to study abroad in Rome during the winter semester.
And then I found these quotes on someones profile and they made me really sad.
"One day your going to realize that she's the one for you, and on that day she is going to wake up to the man who already knew."
"Never make someone your priority if you are only their convenience."
I'm a really bad judge of character. Or maybe I was just decieved by a person that I thought I could trust. But either way, I feel like a fool.
Luckily I still have a lot of other people who care about me and don't make me feel as worthless as someone else did. I'd just feel a lot better right now if all of those people weren't so far away.
But it's okay. I'll figure everything out. I'm good at that.