i don't believe in Real anymore
My world consists of a view seen with my eyes closed. I can lay next to you and shut these sensors until the gray expanse is unlimited in all directions. It stretches miles and miles--with all possibilities awaiting somewhere in that thin matter. I am alone even with you beside me. I can turn my illusory body to any side and fall forever.
I'm...here
until my mind becomes as lifeless as it was when I was first born.
I don't call this living.
It's not that I'm unhappy.
It's just that
I'm aware.