Jeffery Morrow.

[jessica_sawyer]

It's 4:52 and I can't sleep for the life of me.  I toss and turn and have bad dream after bad dream.  Justin, my ex boyfriend, and Jeffery's best friend came over yesterday and all we did was talk about all the hilarious/crazy times we had together.  I never even realized how much time the 3 of us actually spent together.  Justin said that Jeffery was in love with me, if he wouldn't have been dating me then Jeffery would've tried, ha.  I hope he knew how much I loved him.  He was so great.  Seeing him just laying there in the casket, I just kept thinking he was going to get up and say suuuuuuuuck like he always would say in his funny high pitched voice.  Jeffery helped me move, he funneled liquor at my apartment (countless times), he made me laugh every single time I was around him.  He could put a smile on anyone's face.  He practically lived with me and my friend Amanda for a good year.  I'd go to bed and wake up and Jeffery would be there, sleeping on the couch.  He would've done anything for anyone.  I hope he knows that I would've done anything for him too.  I've never been this torn up about someone passing away.  He was by far the closest friend I have ever had pass away.  It all just seems so unfair, and I don't understand it.  I just wish he was going to walk through my door, and say Messsssssy Jesssssssy in that voice.

I'll never forget you as long as I live Jeffery.  I love you buddy, and I know I'll see you one day.