SAVE ME!
Roy and his friend are still up trying to install SIMS. I just got home from work about 15 minutes ago. Pato brought me home. We have this new girl at work named Alicia. Apparently she goes to my school. Ryan, he was actually human today. He was cussing in Spanish but no one else knew what he was saying. Which I think is kinda funny. Sunday I am going over to Carlitos's house with Pato to eat lunch or dinner whatever it is. But I think that Dad said that I have to be back by 2 so that I can clean my room and do my homework. I asked mom about Tara coming over for that little party thing for the chocolate fest, she was in a pretty good mood but she didn't say anything definite. I also asked her about Becky and/ or Jamie coming over to do Amber and Rosemary's hair but they both have to work. I still have a lot of homework that the due date isn't for a couple weeks but there is a lot of work to be done for them.
Well I guess that I have been thinking a lot about Pato and I for awhile now. I have no clue why or how I feel like this but things just seem different. I don't know. I love him a lot but I think he making himself distanse from me. I love him with all my heart, and I am so in love with him that all I hope is the best for him. Because of the fact that he is taking off two days for Prom next week I guess is the main reason that he is working like 24/7! And the fact that I am either in school, work or I have an activity to do every weekend means we NEVER see eachother. I hope that everything turns out okay for Prom. But he hasn't even gotten his tux yet. I guess I have to write him a letter, or at least talk to him about everything. I get so jealous of other girls not because I think that he will do something with him but because I think he is 'settling for less' with me. He tells me all the time that I am his 'special girl' and he has never trusted any other girl like he has me, and he tells his mom about us all the time. But he told me that when he used to bring a girl home his mom could look at her and say, 'nope not this one'. And she was right all the time. If I am all that he says I am, shes says we're meant to be. A lot better then the 5 year relationship he had with Flor. You know that her baby has Pato's last name but the father is his cousin. And when he talks about that little girl he gets tears in his eyes because he grew so attached to her and then she was taken away. He's told me all the time that he would love to have a baby, but he knows that is not in my best interest. I thought I could go to college for about 2 years and if we're still together and if he proposes, marry him, move out of my house with him, and continue/ finish college, then after about 2 or 3 years of my career start a bigger family. Pato knows that I want a family early because I want my grandma and my dad to be able to spend time with them and make memories. Well, I have to goet up around 6:30 to call Pato to make sure that he is up and then Grandma is coming over tomorrow so... Night ya'll
~ Desperatly In Need of Sleep
Well I guess that I have been thinking a lot about Pato and I for awhile now. I have no clue why or how I feel like this but things just seem different. I don't know. I love him a lot but I think he making himself distanse from me. I love him with all my heart, and I am so in love with him that all I hope is the best for him. Because of the fact that he is taking off two days for Prom next week I guess is the main reason that he is working like 24/7! And the fact that I am either in school, work or I have an activity to do every weekend means we NEVER see eachother. I hope that everything turns out okay for Prom. But he hasn't even gotten his tux yet. I guess I have to write him a letter, or at least talk to him about everything. I get so jealous of other girls not because I think that he will do something with him but because I think he is 'settling for less' with me. He tells me all the time that I am his 'special girl' and he has never trusted any other girl like he has me, and he tells his mom about us all the time. But he told me that when he used to bring a girl home his mom could look at her and say, 'nope not this one'. And she was right all the time. If I am all that he says I am, shes says we're meant to be. A lot better then the 5 year relationship he had with Flor. You know that her baby has Pato's last name but the father is his cousin. And when he talks about that little girl he gets tears in his eyes because he grew so attached to her and then she was taken away. He's told me all the time that he would love to have a baby, but he knows that is not in my best interest. I thought I could go to college for about 2 years and if we're still together and if he proposes, marry him, move out of my house with him, and continue/ finish college, then after about 2 or 3 years of my career start a bigger family. Pato knows that I want a family early because I want my grandma and my dad to be able to spend time with them and make memories. Well, I have to goet up around 6:30 to call Pato to make sure that he is up and then Grandma is coming over tomorrow so... Night ya'll
~ Desperatly In Need of Sleep