this isn't a cry for help, all tho some help would be appreciated.
so... how has my life been?
oh geez
my last journals have been about max
oh geez
well i'm fine now
k well secretly, promise not to tell anyone
i'm not
I still wish we were together
but w/e i'll move on
i just need to feel some sort of security thats all.
give me a little more time
...that big concert was in town
ovation... yea i really wanted to go, but didn't, cuz i have no money, and yea...no ones really paid me for camping yet thats kinda super crappy...
school started...it's alright, i have mr fischer two out of my three clases, thats cool eh. max is in two of the three as well, thats kinda... weird... hes never been in one of my classes before, well he was before iknew him but w/e w/e right... umm... adam is hooking me up with one of his friends, 'tyler', should be fun right. k i dunno what to say... how about what i've done this weekend...
my aunt dianne died, her funeral was saturday
um before that even..
i've been depressed, i don't really know why, just am, i need some cheering up, but i don't know what cheers me up, but finding out my great aunt died made me more sad. I hung out with cc and melissa friday night, rented a movie, saturday went to the funeral then... oh right, okay so i was supposed tohang out with bryan,but ended up not... i was gonna hang out w/ cc n melissa n stu(mels new b/f...) but they never called(anger!!) so i called max... didn't want to but i did cuz i know he'd rather be hanging out with leah or one of his new slutty friends... SO he says he'll call, i leave to go for a walk, met up with max brandon n cade, go to a park to hang out, these punks throw rocks off of the roof of the school and smash bottles, a cop came and yelled at us for doing it, we explained it wasn't us, we leave, fun fun, meet up with jamie, go to my old empty house, oh right i moved haha! so we go there, they do their drugs, i break into my house, grand old time,oh geez i bet they left crap there, i shoulda checked... i hope there isn't water all over the place or anything lol... k thennnnn... walked home w/ max n beany, came home slept, today, worked out, did laundry, did more laundry... i'm supposed to get together with cott so we can do our religions project but yeah... i dunno if he'll call... SO UM! yeah! we moved. my new house is big and nice, pools fun, my rooms kick ass... um.. thats about it. I was determined to do good in school , but i'm kinda caring lesser by the day, i truly am depressed, i dunno how or why or anything tho... Umm... yea i'm determined to have fun now. i just wanna get really fucked up and do something horribly stupid, i'm a teenager, it's what wrere supposed to do. OKAY so i'm gonna go and hang out upstairs, my basments starting to get boring, i've been doign laundry literally all day.
I miss my old life
this new jessica sucks
some one should shoot me
*sigh*
okay well bye.
oh geez
my last journals have been about max
oh geez
well i'm fine now
k well secretly, promise not to tell anyone
i'm not
I still wish we were together
but w/e i'll move on
i just need to feel some sort of security thats all.
give me a little more time
...that big concert was in town
ovation... yea i really wanted to go, but didn't, cuz i have no money, and yea...no ones really paid me for camping yet thats kinda super crappy...
school started...it's alright, i have mr fischer two out of my three clases, thats cool eh. max is in two of the three as well, thats kinda... weird... hes never been in one of my classes before, well he was before iknew him but w/e w/e right... umm... adam is hooking me up with one of his friends, 'tyler', should be fun right. k i dunno what to say... how about what i've done this weekend...
my aunt dianne died, her funeral was saturday
um before that even..
i've been depressed, i don't really know why, just am, i need some cheering up, but i don't know what cheers me up, but finding out my great aunt died made me more sad. I hung out with cc and melissa friday night, rented a movie, saturday went to the funeral then... oh right, okay so i was supposed tohang out with bryan,but ended up not... i was gonna hang out w/ cc n melissa n stu(mels new b/f...) but they never called(anger!!) so i called max... didn't want to but i did cuz i know he'd rather be hanging out with leah or one of his new slutty friends... SO he says he'll call, i leave to go for a walk, met up with max brandon n cade, go to a park to hang out, these punks throw rocks off of the roof of the school and smash bottles, a cop came and yelled at us for doing it, we explained it wasn't us, we leave, fun fun, meet up with jamie, go to my old empty house, oh right i moved haha! so we go there, they do their drugs, i break into my house, grand old time,oh geez i bet they left crap there, i shoulda checked... i hope there isn't water all over the place or anything lol... k thennnnn... walked home w/ max n beany, came home slept, today, worked out, did laundry, did more laundry... i'm supposed to get together with cott so we can do our religions project but yeah... i dunno if he'll call... SO UM! yeah! we moved. my new house is big and nice, pools fun, my rooms kick ass... um.. thats about it. I was determined to do good in school , but i'm kinda caring lesser by the day, i truly am depressed, i dunno how or why or anything tho... Umm... yea i'm determined to have fun now. i just wanna get really fucked up and do something horribly stupid, i'm a teenager, it's what wrere supposed to do. OKAY so i'm gonna go and hang out upstairs, my basments starting to get boring, i've been doign laundry literally all day.
I miss my old life
this new jessica sucks
some one should shoot me
*sigh*
okay well bye.