Stuff
Allright so some people know I've been dating a girl who's explicitly non-monogamous, thus introducing me into the world of non-monogamy (results posted in non-public filtered parts). Well, she broke up with her long term boyfriend fairly recently, so she's sort of upset about that so I haven't really talked to her in a week or two. Originally, I was just like... whatever, I guess I did something that pissed her off or lost her interest. That had me pretty upset for a while as that everybody wants to feel desired. So I found out about the boyfriend thing last nite, and one thing she said was that she didn't want me to be a rebound relationship and asked if we could just be friends for now.
I think this is a stunning example of how much I've changed. 5 years ago, I'd have been pissed off about this. 5 years ago, the idea of a polyamorous relationship would have blown my mind actually because I'd have been super jealous. Now, I'm actually like... omg, that is SO awesome... somebody thinks enough of me that they don't want me to be a rebound relationship. Like I'm actually really flattered. Of course it COULD all be made up just as an excuse to not date me, but then why would she want to be friends while she gets things sorted out? We're actually supposed to carve pumpkins on Sunday.
Oh and I got a swimsuit last nite. I decided that my gym has a nice pool and there's no reason why I shouldn't be able to go swimming in it. I'm surprised as that I found one that doesn't look all that bad on me:
I think this is a stunning example of how much I've changed. 5 years ago, I'd have been pissed off about this. 5 years ago, the idea of a polyamorous relationship would have blown my mind actually because I'd have been super jealous. Now, I'm actually like... omg, that is SO awesome... somebody thinks enough of me that they don't want me to be a rebound relationship. Like I'm actually really flattered. Of course it COULD all be made up just as an excuse to not date me, but then why would she want to be friends while she gets things sorted out? We're actually supposed to carve pumpkins on Sunday.
Oh and I got a swimsuit last nite. I decided that my gym has a nice pool and there's no reason why I shouldn't be able to go swimming in it. I'm surprised as that I found one that doesn't look all that bad on me: