Sep 17, 2004 22:42
My appologies for my sudden bout of disgusting unhappiness tonight.
Update:
'Twas DAN!
I understood that the world was nothing: a mechanical chaos of casual, brute enmity on which we stupidly impose our hopes and fears. I understood that, finally and absolutely, I alone exist. all the rest, I saw, is merely what pushes me, or what I push against, blindly - as blindly as all that is not myself pushes back. I create the whole universe, blink by blink. An ungly god pitifully dying in a tree!