I am so lame.
I suck. I really, really suck. First I can't write, then I can write, then I have too much to write and don't want to write, and now I'm managing to piss people off just by not saying anything.
But what is really lame, is when I'm in these chatrooms (which really I shouldn't be in) and I start these innocent little conversations with complete strangers, then they mention they were friends with her, and I just freeze. Wham, conversation dead. And I can't say anything to them, because honestly what do I say? It goes back to what Ranier was saying, about the Control->Responsibility equation. It's my own fucking fault for staying in these fucking chat rooms. What the fuck is wrong with me?
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't think I ever knew to begin with.
But what is really lame, is when I'm in these chatrooms (which really I shouldn't be in) and I start these innocent little conversations with complete strangers, then they mention they were friends with her, and I just freeze. Wham, conversation dead. And I can't say anything to them, because honestly what do I say? It goes back to what Ranier was saying, about the Control->Responsibility equation. It's my own fucking fault for staying in these fucking chat rooms. What the fuck is wrong with me?
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't think I ever knew to begin with.