ain't no glory in a war.
today was like uhh not good but i had some smiles. does that make sense?
i'm just so sad. i think i might be depressed, like clinically, not like "ehhh look at me i'm emo". almost everything makes me sad. and i dont really need to get into details, just lots of stupid things happened today..and it resulted in tears. and tyler saw me..and that was freaking embarassing and i wish i could have like changed that. but bottom line, im really sad. a lot of the time. and i'm really scared..and im bad with physical pain/doctors. and i feel sick always. and everything makes me worry. and sometimes like people do stuff, and they know it bothers me, and when they mention the thing that they are doing i get upset..but they just dont get it. im never included in the fun, in fact i mostly just ruin it.
i'm starting my diet tomorrow. time for this lard ass to lose freaking weight.
i feel so sick from this anxiety.
i'm so sick of crying. but i can't stop.
i'm just so sad. i think i might be depressed, like clinically, not like "ehhh look at me i'm emo". almost everything makes me sad. and i dont really need to get into details, just lots of stupid things happened today..and it resulted in tears. and tyler saw me..and that was freaking embarassing and i wish i could have like changed that. but bottom line, im really sad. a lot of the time. and i'm really scared..and im bad with physical pain/doctors. and i feel sick always. and everything makes me worry. and sometimes like people do stuff, and they know it bothers me, and when they mention the thing that they are doing i get upset..but they just dont get it. im never included in the fun, in fact i mostly just ruin it.
i'm starting my diet tomorrow. time for this lard ass to lose freaking weight.
i feel so sick from this anxiety.
i'm so sick of crying. but i can't stop.