Do I fail them even now?
What do you when things in your life that you can't change are getting in the way of the only things that make you happy? You suffer. What do you do when you have no choice? You do what you have to do. What do you do when obligations are thrown at you and you have no way out of them? You fulfill them. What do you do when there are physical demands placed on you that you just can't meet and you spend your days in pain? You suck it up. What do you do when you can't get a good night sleep because you are awakened by the needs of someone who can't take care of himself? You go without sleep. How do you explain to other people that you have no choice? You don't. How do you make someone understand that you feel obligated to take care of someone who has taken care of you your entire life even if it means making sacrifices and aggrevating injuries and slowly going insane? There is no way to explain it. What do you do when you tell people you can't do things but there is no one else to do them? You shut up and do them. What do you do when the shit in your life stresses out the only person you've ever really loved to the point of sickness? You cry because you feel like shit and there is nothing you can do about it.