nonsensical musings that noone need read...
Did you ever wake up and just have this inexplicable feeling of blah? You dont know what it is so you dont know how to get rid of it and it influences your mood all day. I have one of those feelings right now. I dont if it's because I am not happy with my current station in life... I have no clothes or money and anything really of my own, I'm in debt up to my ears and have 43 cents in my bank account right now. It could be exaustion from the final weekend of the show or it could be distaste at the way this semester is going so far. People I trust in the theatre department have been flat out lying to my face and I dont like it at all. It makes me want to run away and cry. And then attack of the killer mood leads me to apparently do stupid things and say things that just get me in trouble. I dont know if that's the moods fault or my stupid mouth's fault. I just dont know anything anymore. Right now I know that it is hot as fuck in the computer lab. God it's killing me. But anyway. I dont know what to do with myself except for type a long whiney journal entry and hope the act of typing it does something for me. I doubt it will. I just want to chain smoke until my face falls off. That's all. I guess I will just go back to my life and try to figure out how to fix what I've broken and better the things that have fallen apart and get myself out of this funk. Wish me luck.