Okay. So, Life, Thanks A Lot.
Okay, so, this is going to be kinda disjointed, not from distress as should be the case, but from... not-knowing-how-to-react... ness... Well, I guess I'm distressed, because whenever I think about it, I start to cry, but I don't really feel anything. It's like my body is reacting like it should, but I'm just... kind of in denial, I guess. Or something.
My dad just called, like, an hour ago and told us that he has throat cancer, and that it's probably already spread to his lymph nodes (or whatever). Well, he didn't actually tell me this, he wanted to talk to my mom first and told her and I pretty much gleaned it from his conversation with her so he didn't have to tell me. I cried when I realized it was my dad on the phone, cause I didn't know at first, but I was determined to be normal when I talked to him (he knew I overheard because I was standing right next to my mom).
He's coming out tomorrow for Thanksgiving, he wasn't going to, but my mom invited him and he's coming (which is a big step for my mom who has issues with my dad ever since... forever).
He has to go to Minnesota on Sunday to do some tests, apparently the hospital he's going to is really good. We don't know how bad it is, and my mom's friend's dad had the same thing and is still trucking along, so it could turn out to be okay. We all are trying to think positively. There is a no crying ban starting tomorrow, so I suppose I should get it all out today.
I'm trying really hard to think positively. I mean, we don't know how bad it is, it could still be treatable if not curable. So, I suppose once the initial shock of the situation fades away, everything will get a bit clearer.
Because of treatment, he may not be able to come down for Christmas, so I'm going to fly out sometime in January to spend time with him, I think. Thus, I may not be able to go to Ohayocon. For good reasons other than laziness this time. I'm sorry if this inconveniences anyone, but it isn't for sure yet!!
I'm sure everything will be fine. I just needed to write this out. You know, clear my head and all that. I need to go watch a comedy... or a horror movie... and not Howl's Moving Castle... yet. Even though the DVD is looking at me... demanding for I to watch it.
My dad just called, like, an hour ago and told us that he has throat cancer, and that it's probably already spread to his lymph nodes (or whatever). Well, he didn't actually tell me this, he wanted to talk to my mom first and told her and I pretty much gleaned it from his conversation with her so he didn't have to tell me. I cried when I realized it was my dad on the phone, cause I didn't know at first, but I was determined to be normal when I talked to him (he knew I overheard because I was standing right next to my mom).
He's coming out tomorrow for Thanksgiving, he wasn't going to, but my mom invited him and he's coming (which is a big step for my mom who has issues with my dad ever since... forever).
He has to go to Minnesota on Sunday to do some tests, apparently the hospital he's going to is really good. We don't know how bad it is, and my mom's friend's dad had the same thing and is still trucking along, so it could turn out to be okay. We all are trying to think positively. There is a no crying ban starting tomorrow, so I suppose I should get it all out today.
I'm trying really hard to think positively. I mean, we don't know how bad it is, it could still be treatable if not curable. So, I suppose once the initial shock of the situation fades away, everything will get a bit clearer.
Because of treatment, he may not be able to come down for Christmas, so I'm going to fly out sometime in January to spend time with him, I think. Thus, I may not be able to go to Ohayocon. For good reasons other than laziness this time. I'm sorry if this inconveniences anyone, but it isn't for sure yet!!
I'm sure everything will be fine. I just needed to write this out. You know, clear my head and all that. I need to go watch a comedy... or a horror movie... and not Howl's Moving Castle... yet. Even though the DVD is looking at me... demanding for I to watch it.