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so im here thinking back on things and people that i miss sometimes..
its not easy to stop thinking about it..
its really hard sometimes also when im feeling down
i sometimes dont know why im sad or why im crying
but then deep down i really know why..
its SO pathetic how i keep thinking about the past..
when i have so many great things and people in front of me..
but on the other hand
things are really fucking awesome..
if it wasnt for that then my bitch ass wouldnt be talking to the greatest
guys i have ever met..they are so awesome:)
they put a smile to my face..
i dont think i have ever had so much fun with all of them..
i prolly wouldnt have done anything i would have done now
im glad
and feeling pretty great about things..
and gonna get good things this weekend:)aaaaaaaaaaah im so funny
i think i have changed so much deep down..
maybe others dont see it.
but i sure as hell do
and its not a bad change to me
i think its a very good change
ive been putting pieces of the puzzle together and
i have accomplished so much
ive never felt more prroud of myself
especially with school;)
and i had such a great time with john at richards PARtay on friday
even though i spent most of my time hanging out with Jacob
i guess i felt more closer to him then any of the other guys
but mayne there were some fuckin hot guys there no doubt
ah i wish i could say this but i cant on this lj
any one can read this and i cant have no one know
but i want to say it so badly
only becuz its so exciting to me and makes me feel so very happy:))))
really happy
i just hope it doesnt fuck up things
not only between that person
but with other people who really have no reason dont get mad over..
ugh it feels good but yet SO WRONG!!
i sometimes dont think i make the right decisions
but i can do wut i want right?
so as long as im not hurting anyone
and i REALLY hope i dont get hurt in the end
and im not sure wut to feel
i have mixed emotions and i dont even know if ill wind up falling for..
cuz if i do i think that would fuck me up pretty bad
especially with a person like that :(
but oh fuckin well
im willing to take a chance becuz i really need this and i need the good feeling that i have right now
even though i have his sort of wierd feeling in my stomache that says not to do it..
and im pretty sure im not making a sense but it does to me andd
it feels soooo good to let out:)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh
ugh i dropped my fone in the fukin toilet yesterday at my gmas house.
*screams with excitement*
and yes miguel came over!!!
and it was necessary to write in big letters!!
cuz i think i like him and it is so cute
and its an awesome feeling:)
and daniel waass there too soh soh bf
and i got to crack a coscorony on him:)))
i was so buzzed;)
ha and fukin work saturday was good
and jessika and me almost got molested..
"do u have a myspace?"
NO u sick fuk
i am not going to let you take naked pics of me!!!
fukin bastard
but yeah it was fun even though miguel didnt kiss me!!
i realy would have luved that
dont even care
well my bitch ass has to go
so latazzzzzzzzzzzzz
[valerieeeee]♥