down in flames
Well...today sucked.
I broke up with Mike today. I'm crying about it, I didn't want to, but we weren't working at all. We were fighting all the time and I started feeling it physically and I just...I couldn't take it anymore. Things started out so well between us, but then he says that I kept getting 'upset' about everything and he got scared of me and closed up (deja vu) and I got hurt because of that and it's been months of us trying to work together but just not getting anywhere. I never did get to move in with him. He's calling my phone like crazy and crying. I know he must hate me, but why can't he see that we weren't healthy together and that's all there is to it??? I don't hate him, I still care for him just like I care for all of my friends, and he's a wonderful person, we just don't work as a couple anymore. Why can't anyone I go out with deal when the relationship comes to the end? Obviously at least one of us wasn't convinced it was working, it's nothing against them, it's just not happening. I hate this. He was so wonderful until I 'scared' him. Why does this always happen? I just want a guy that will hold me and respect me and just be nice.
At least this means I'll probably be back on lj more often.
Turns out I was talking to him about 2,000 minutes a month. That's about a day's worth of hours each month, at least according to my dad.
Well, back to life.
I broke up with Mike today. I'm crying about it, I didn't want to, but we weren't working at all. We were fighting all the time and I started feeling it physically and I just...I couldn't take it anymore. Things started out so well between us, but then he says that I kept getting 'upset' about everything and he got scared of me and closed up (deja vu) and I got hurt because of that and it's been months of us trying to work together but just not getting anywhere. I never did get to move in with him. He's calling my phone like crazy and crying. I know he must hate me, but why can't he see that we weren't healthy together and that's all there is to it??? I don't hate him, I still care for him just like I care for all of my friends, and he's a wonderful person, we just don't work as a couple anymore. Why can't anyone I go out with deal when the relationship comes to the end? Obviously at least one of us wasn't convinced it was working, it's nothing against them, it's just not happening. I hate this. He was so wonderful until I 'scared' him. Why does this always happen? I just want a guy that will hold me and respect me and just be nice.
At least this means I'll probably be back on lj more often.
Turns out I was talking to him about 2,000 minutes a month. That's about a day's worth of hours each month, at least according to my dad.
Well, back to life.