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[jesserbod]

almost daily i think of how many people i miss seeing since i've been back in lafayette. I miss Sue, and Fe and Brittany and Michael and I think I miss some of the people that I worked with at TJMaxx...I don't miss the druggie neighbors I had over that summer and I don't miss the jackass boyfriend that I used to have...but also, I wonder if i should risk going back... I've got a pretty good thing going with my new baby and I don't like being away from him if I don't have to be..meaning if I'm not at work or at school I cannot justify a babysitter. I wonder if it makes me a bad mom to want to be in college still...i also wonder if i've been away so long that even if i did return i would be an outsider... I just learn so little so late... Chad mentioned in his post that he hopes that I might go to Muncie with him whenever he goes again...i don't know. Something happened to me when i woke up in hte hospital and even though i don't know what it was...it has aged me in some way and part of me thinks it might be for the best just to walk away...

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