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im in the weirdest mood all of a sudden... i was fine all day.. and all night... then.. at like 2... all of a sudden i got in this weird mood... and cant put my finger on it... i have a lot on my mind and im sure it could be any of those things... or a combination of things... none the less... its a weird mood... its just after 3... im about to go to bed... i feel the beginnings of sickness and i dont like it... the last thing i need is to get a cold right before the HUGE show... so im taking it easy... going to bed early... yes 3 is early... haha... compared to the 6am average for me... hopefully i can fall asleep quickly enough.. otherwise ill go take one of my pills.. i just hate doing that...
i wish this was easier... but its not... and its not going to be... ill just be patient and do my best and hope that everything works out ok... its all so taxing on my nerves... probably half the reason i feel like im getting sick... im stressed out and my immune system is low... i guess ill have to start taking better care of myself until things start falling into place and the stress starts to subside...
anyway... time to attempt sleep...
i wish this was easier... but its not... and its not going to be... ill just be patient and do my best and hope that everything works out ok... its all so taxing on my nerves... probably half the reason i feel like im getting sick... im stressed out and my immune system is low... i guess ill have to start taking better care of myself until things start falling into place and the stress starts to subside...
anyway... time to attempt sleep...