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Alright so, it's 4:45 in the morning and I'm awake. Not of my own free will mind you, but I'm awake. The funny part is that I'm not really upset. I admit I have done something that I wasn't suppose to, but in my own defence I didn't know I was getting myself into something like this. But, I'm guessing I'm no longer needed. It hurts a little to say, I actually think I have been out grown. Maybe it's just the 5 in the morning talking, but it doesn't hurt so bad when you almost expect it. I thought something with this ending would happen. Didn't think it would progress like this though. I know I'll be a better person for it, but I will miss it. I'm hoping there can still be some good terms. Although, knowing my counterpart..... I don't know what I should expect. I was lied to, I was taken advantage of, and now I'm bearing the consequences. I have the feeling that I will be the next thing cut out of a life. Sucks. I liked it. This was someone that I was really proud of talking about and really happy to be friends with, not I feel like I'm going to be cut out just because.... well. I do deserve a demotion. Still. I can't think about this right now. My 5 am brain isn't allowing for the right emotions and I'm pretty sure this post will offend. If it doesn't... sorry.