May 08, 2008 03:03
It's nearly behind me now. I've got one more final and a tour to do and my freshman year at Liberty University is done. I look back at the last entry I did at the beginning of the school year and can't help being overwhelmed by all I've experienced this year. I've encountered so much and learned incredible amounts of knowledge but I still lack so much in terms of searching after God's glory. What happened to myself wanting to scream God's glory to the world? Why am I still mere feet from where I stood a year ago in my spiritual discipline?
The love songs I write God at night mean nothing when my heart's not beating after him in the daylight. It seems that my head could burst from the knowledge that this wonderful university has poured into it, but my soul is still longing for the Fire that consumes my thoughts. I feel like God has drawn a line in the sand for me... He wants me to cross it into the unfathomable things He has planned for me... but I'm still here at the edge, content with my guitar in my hands and my butt firmly on the ground.
This summer will be a turn in tides. I'm tired of settling. I'm tired of mediocrity. I'm tired of seeing what God has for me on the other side of that line and not doing a single thing about it. The Fire waits to consume me... now it's time to run into It and watch what It will do to my life. No more sitting, I'm now on my knees.