SCREAM.
Tonight everything has crashed down on me.
I miss my family. It feels like it's been years since I last saw my family, even though it's only been around a month. I can't believe for the past 18 years of my life I didn't know how amazing my family truly was. Their sacrifice for me, their love, their guidance... I hate that I didn't get down on my knees every night for the past 18 years and thank God for the family that He placed me in. I'm in shock that when I was asked to do something around the house, I had one ounce of resistance. Why didn't I see what I had? Right now I would stop anything at the drop of a hat to do whatever my family were to ask. It's hard to believe that I didn't wake up every morning and tell them how much they meant to me. I have been blessed among men to call them my family, and I will praise God for the wonderful memories they've given me and are yet to give me. I love you guys with all that's in me. THANK YOU for being the most wonderful guides and companions that one could've ever dreamed for.
In light of all this, I've realized that God deserves more of me than I've been giving. I've failed recently to praise Him for Who He Is on a daily basis. My actions, my thoughts, my words.... Are they glorifying the One Who paid my debt? Are they pleasing to the God Who created me and knows every inch of my being? Am I, the worst of sinners, praising Him with everything I've got? NO. I hate it, but the answer is no. He's given me this family, He's given me a free education and the opportunity to travel the US and play music, He's sacrificed Himself so that I would be able to sing songs to Him forever... and yet I fail to recognize this and thank Him with my actions.
I WANT EVERY FIBER IN ME TO SCREAM HIS GLORY. I want my thoughts to shout His mercy, I want my actions to yell of His love, I want my words to be the loudest thing in creation telling the world of Who I serve.
God forgive me for being so stupid. I'm so undeserving and yet you continue to bless me with things I can't even comprehend. In the pain of being away from home, in the joy of serving on Sounds of Liberty, in the confusion and excitment of what's to come, may I scream Your glory to the world. May every ounce in me lift You up.
I miss my family. It feels like it's been years since I last saw my family, even though it's only been around a month. I can't believe for the past 18 years of my life I didn't know how amazing my family truly was. Their sacrifice for me, their love, their guidance... I hate that I didn't get down on my knees every night for the past 18 years and thank God for the family that He placed me in. I'm in shock that when I was asked to do something around the house, I had one ounce of resistance. Why didn't I see what I had? Right now I would stop anything at the drop of a hat to do whatever my family were to ask. It's hard to believe that I didn't wake up every morning and tell them how much they meant to me. I have been blessed among men to call them my family, and I will praise God for the wonderful memories they've given me and are yet to give me. I love you guys with all that's in me. THANK YOU for being the most wonderful guides and companions that one could've ever dreamed for.
In light of all this, I've realized that God deserves more of me than I've been giving. I've failed recently to praise Him for Who He Is on a daily basis. My actions, my thoughts, my words.... Are they glorifying the One Who paid my debt? Are they pleasing to the God Who created me and knows every inch of my being? Am I, the worst of sinners, praising Him with everything I've got? NO. I hate it, but the answer is no. He's given me this family, He's given me a free education and the opportunity to travel the US and play music, He's sacrificed Himself so that I would be able to sing songs to Him forever... and yet I fail to recognize this and thank Him with my actions.
I WANT EVERY FIBER IN ME TO SCREAM HIS GLORY. I want my thoughts to shout His mercy, I want my actions to yell of His love, I want my words to be the loudest thing in creation telling the world of Who I serve.
God forgive me for being so stupid. I'm so undeserving and yet you continue to bless me with things I can't even comprehend. In the pain of being away from home, in the joy of serving on Sounds of Liberty, in the confusion and excitment of what's to come, may I scream Your glory to the world. May every ounce in me lift You up.